用华文

我不知道要怎么了。

用起华文来了。


我不知道我在做什么。

也记不起曾经做过什么。


我有成就吗？

过去的任何事迹又重要吗？


我说过什么吗？

曾夸下海口说过什么吗？


我不要记得。

哈哈，我说过这么多，这次也可能是又一次的谎言。



现在的你读了这几行的字，明白了什么吗？
不要装懂或胡乱猜测我话的意识。
只有是挚友，华文又不错的会懂。
不再多说了。

打完对我来说这么多字，我还觉得我满酷的。哈哈。
（怕字太小我把字调大一点）

Laugh it Off

Now i can only laugh things off.


Good/Bad? I don't know the answer.


I can play card games with my brother till the morning but i can't sit down and study for 1 hour. haha.

A Book

Has been reading this book recently which taught me many new things.

I'd better start now.

What Fate Really Is

Oh wells, today met Siwei at city hall. Helen who has never ever i swear in my life or rather of my knowledge never met her in person before. For just a moment while i was trying to get my brunch at some donut joint, she spotted her. We simply walked past these stalls, me being ignorant to things that doesn't really concerns me, didn't see Siwei but Helen saw her! And so oh yes.



Its fate as simply moments or rather 10 minutes ago, i was telling Helen or rather maybe the day before i was telling Helen that why should i be the one to arrange/decide on this 'outing' which has got nothing really to do with the other parties.(Okay quite bad to say other parties) Moreover, I'm not the one who's not available and where i don't even know why the other person is not available. So why am i being called a 'joke' jokingly by Siwei! No never will i decide and choose the day to meet, and maybe I'm willing to forsake the chance to meet Siwei. A really nice person i thought and still think she is. I thought the matter was trivial after all.




But once again, as I'm all pissed off the day before. I met her in person earlier today. And all the angst were gone. Why, simply because i know she's not the one blah blah and she's just too happy-go-lucky to feel how serious i treat this whole small incident. Maybe until she reads this article she would never know. Anyways, I've already met her though no long conversations etc. its made possible. That's what fate really is.













Back to today. As well, i was there to settle my brunch but i got put off by this really long queue which stayed the same even after i finished the food i bought directly opposite this stall. You may want to notice the queue which extends beyond the background. That man in the background if you would notice with a tie, stood there probably even before I've reached. This is not fate haha. But i would appreciate if anyone gets a donut specially for me from there =p, just joking.








Anyone, what do you read from this picture?


It means something but nothing to me at the moment. You can never know what a person thinks, you need clues, hints, something before you 'understand'. You understand when its a conversation, reasons thrown subtly here and there. You'll never understand with no verification. Never guess, or you may just end up being a fool. I can't fathom what anyone is going to think, so can anyone of you? Tell me if you can, you must be divine.



*TO TELL YOU WHY YOU SHOULD ACKKNOWLEDGE ME. (If you happen to read this)
Answer:SIMPLY BECAUSE I'M YOUR BROTHER.

Unfinished Business

Some Friends the longer and better you know them, you'll be more sure of what they think and how they act, what they mean and what they don't mean.



Some Friends, the longer you know them, the more you're uncertain about them, not sure of what they think and how they think, not knowing what they mean when they mean something.


Troubled. No.

2 more days and i'll finish the 'unfinished business'.

Bargain!

Really need to study, at the same time keeping to various commitments.


Anyways got a good bargain on saturday! Got a book that I would have liked to read for $6!!
Its original price was $39.90 because ppopular in orcahrd is closing down! Albeit the cover was a little scratched and all.


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Subscribing to being a pupil and student.

18 Years Ago

I'm EIGHTEEN, i hope i know what i want.

Google Maps kewl

This is AJ
http://maps.google.com/maps?hl=en&safe=off&ie=UTF8&oe=UTF-8&num=10&ll=1.378662,103.845971&spn=0.002612,0.003616&t=k&z=18&om=0

This is VJ
http://maps.google.com/maps?ie=UTF8&hl=en&om=0&ll=1.306278,103.919705&spn=0.002612,0.003616&t=k&z=18

This is Gong Jiao
http://maps.google.com/maps?ie=UTF8&oe=UTF-8&hl=en&ll=1.354808,103.844935&spn=0.002612,0.003616&t=k&z=18&om=1



Can't really tell if AJ is bigger than VJ LOL

And Gong Jiao's field is liek a desert!

Resolutions 03

It may be late for this year, but not too late for my life.


It starts with:

1. BE RIGHT- DOING THE RIGHT THINGS

2. MORE DECISIVE- YES/NO

3. LESS VULGAR- NO UNNECESSARY EXPLETIVES

4. TRYING HARD- FOR ALL MY COMMITMENTS(trying my best is overstating i thought)

5. CLARITY OF PURPOSE (understand)


Found no. 5!


Many more to go which i have to discover.

Wake up.

There ain't two bit lawyers.

Fate

Do you ever believe in fate/destiny?(anything else along the line which spells similar meaning)


Have you discovered patterns in your life that keeps reoccuring?
e.g Good->Achievement->On course for success-> Fail
Lousy/boring all the while-> turns out positive?


If yours doesn't at least mines do fit into this 'random occurance' of events. Times where i enjoy the most, it will either end up in pieces or total disappearance from my life. Times where i do not actually say i enjoy, it ends up positive in varying degrees.

I hope my time in Aj would not be wasted, i can mention here i don't fancy being in Aj, but as if i have a choice with my should i say unfortunate showing in my first try with cambridge.

I'm desparately hoping that this time, it would turn out positive. Anyways i used to think back then and recently that i'm made for big things in life. 'Unfortunately' my life thus far doesn't much support the thought. But I still feel so.


Today's BK session with my 1622mates+Kai Kai was enjoyable! And its coming to an end once again..

In The Same Plight

If talking degenerates, why talk.


I will talk less in school now, really since it degenerates me. Seriously the more i talk to luvis foo, the more i've found how much i have degenerated.


So why talk, since i think 93% of the school in my opinion is relatively useless.


Why 93% haha just a random number.

I Think So

LOL

From You

fickle fickle!


i love pple who are fickle, and it's YOU!!!


marvin!




(i'll publish things from you)

Maybe they want to change

When i've blogged about something not exactly classified under happy/excited category, i'm not at all encourgaed by this page. If you feel the same!? You'll understand.

Vindicated

I chase- it comes and go.

I let go- still held at the throat.

I hold on- hangs loosely.

I remember- hurts me even more.

I listen- the more i'm confused.

I dislike- i still live on.

I cherish- it upsets.

I cherish- stays apart.

I certain- it fails me.

I laugh- upset.

I alone- nothing helps.


Seriously don't really know whats going on. Its really really important to get it right.If it fails, I fail.

Made To Break

I'm still goignt o do my maths and economics homework on ivle, simply becuase it can be done. Though having trainings/ match on both Monday and Tuesday didn't help with what i'm going through right now.

There are loads of things which can't be accessed, I've reflected my views on the survey which they left it there for me. At least maths teachers are intelligent enough to put slides if the videos didn't work. I did what i can and what i could have done.

And IVLE made be break my promise. I couldn't complete the work, having Chemistry SPA tomorrow is not helping either, together with the Ironman trainings, compounded with my poor sleeping habits these 2 days. What can be done? But i'm really sorry to break my promise. I can't complete chemistry even if i copied my notes over the phone as i still have to prepare for SPA after doing maths.

I guess i should stop reasoning and explaining and get down to do maths. Ciao.

I wonder

For a moment i wondered if i was on a 56K connection, so as the school's web portal is loading i decided to blog since there's nothing better to do, 10mins passed and its still loading the 'welcome' page.

Anyways, i do not believe in secrets. If it is a secret then don't tell anyone! Its the best way of keeping a secret. If you tell anyone, you're putting a stake on the character, discipline and tenacity of that person.

anyways the 'E-lecture' supposed to last 33min, but it took me more than 3 hours.

Don't have the mood to continue, i don't think i will finish the e-learning shit that cant load.

Resolutions 02

It may be late for this year, but not too late for my life.

It starts with:

1. BE RIGHT- DOING THE RIGHT THINGS

2. MORE DECISIVE- YES/NO

3. LESS VULGAR- NO UNNECESSARY EXPLETIVES

4. TRYING HARD- FOR ALL MY COMMITMENTS(trying my best is overstating i thought)

Found no. 4 in two days, not bad i thought haha.

Many more to go which i have to discover.

Consumption

My Addidas boots tore, so after miserably taping it for many weeks, i decided to buy a new pair of boots, not top end i thought.

So considered many different models until i tried on this boot from my team mate, and i thought i loved it. So i went to Queensway to look for it i thought it was $159.

Haha but to my pleasure, it was at a discount of $125, only the latest colour-White/Silver cost $159.

Initially i thought the only one availiable was the striking yellow and green, but i went to other stalls and found this colour which i really like, but in the process i 'got attitude' by Salam and Sons, i think i'll never go there anymore. I bought at Weston in the end, they had all the colours, muahaha.

Here it is! :D

Resolutions

It may be late for this year, but not too late for my life.

It starts with:

1. BE RIGHT-DOING THE RIGHT THINGS

2. MORE DECISIVE- YES/NO

3. LESS VULGAR-NO UNNECESSARY EXPLETIVES

Many more to go which i have to discover.

Ill

The title of the post looks odd eh?

Thats how my body feels ye, odd.

It meant ill, with 'i' in caps it looks like ' l ' X3

Struggled through SPA today, felt terrible, coughing and sneezing so frequently, wanted to stay in school till after Chemistry and Physics lectures, you know why.

But felt really terrible, so went home ya, PE HOD signed my 'leave early form' haha.

Went to see doctor immediately, luckily got enough money in my wallet, freaking $34 dollars, if i do well i might want to be a doctor for this one reason-MONEY.

Slept for a few hours ok, 6 hours till 7 and went to buy SUBWAY!!!

Ate a foot long 'subway melt' myself haha.

And that was my sickly day.
I love you.



Not going to school tomorrow!! Woohoo can sleep late for once in so many weeks, haven't been waking up late due to trainings and giving tuition.

Oh, and bloody got 'tao pok' yesterday with a record of don't know how many people for no particular reason, with this fat indian being the first one on me, i bet i had close to 500kg on me(8people) till at one point, i couldn't breathe. Please Ms SUSAN LEONG, haha see this and punish them for erm 'horseplay'.



Anyways i feel its time to reply a letter haha.

Mr Bean

I want to watch Music and Lyrics, but watched bean instead, but the outcome was as good :).


Oh anyways do any of you know about the new ferry wheel, it looks so cool.


I want to take the ferry wheel with you, and only you.

Priorities

Its so clear to me now.

Me

Took this picture last year during my Taiwan trip. My brother took it for me =D

I've found it!!!

I've found it, way damn sure.

Yay!!

It will come to an end

The time i've spent, the efforts i've put in.


No doubt at times I wasn't putting in 100%.


But effort was made to make myself availiable, and often i carried on with pains.


That and those must come to an end.


I'll push forward. With what i Have for the greater good.

Just say so

I'm a rather sensitive individual. And I know.


But i don't assume.


After days where i digged and probed, i got to know.


You just have to say so.

Another Day

It was end of school, had a somewhat okay day, which means nothing too bad or nothing too good happened. Physics tutor had some problems about controlling his temper although sometimes we were at fault, nevertheless i think its simply not right to slam things. After that went better, since according to my classmates i was the only one who passed the Econs test, a mere 'D', so wasn't really too happy about it. But at least it was not failing. So some good things some not so good things during curriculum time.

Lined up for PE, didn't have to go. So changed into boots and warmed up for training. It all started well until coach decided to work with possesssion in breaking down attack, those Arsenal type of attack, but with more switching, perhaps like the Spanish League. Mistakes after mistakes after yet another mistake. Everybody have a fair share, and obviously including myself. Coach got really dissappointed and made us sprint like dogs across the breadth of the field, we deserved it though. After say probably 6/7 sprints we resumed the training, once again the team screwed it up quite badly, and it was when he decided to call it a day.

Our teacher in charge, then worked on our fitness since coach got too dissapointed and left early, wasn't very tiring but strained on the hamstring. Perhaps when you run on the field its softer, thus working more on the hamstring when you need to go at a faster pace. Rounds after rounds and did 3 sets of conditioning excercises and that's all for training.

Felt quite bad as i was one of the players who lost concentration etc. So i stretched change, and head home. Boarded the 853 and a little kid and his mother made my day, simple things, yes indeed simple.

The little kid sat down with his mother after they paid for the bus fair, he was desparate to press the bell, and so his loving mother allowed him to do so. Initially, i thought that she shouldn't let him do that since they probably would not alight at the next stop just after boarding but they did, i wronged them for that moment. Anyway, this was not what made my day, i would be a freak if this made my day. He couldn't press the bell as it requires quite some effort to depress the button. So while the little kid was desparately trying to her the bell ring, his mother pressed onto another bell to let that happened, he was elated. How naive is the little kid?

Why can't the world be like this? Or is the world like this?

[Give me a some credit for trying to portray the scene =) ]

The Year of Pig

Wow, this new year gave me lots of surprises!

Espicially in terms of the contents in the red packets!

Reached a record high!!!

Hope it signals a good year ahead for me!

Happy New Year of Pig!

3rd Day of New Year

A few of them came for stayover. Surprisingly no mahjong, due to the very fact that everyone is tired and all, but we still didn't sleep until 6 in the morning of the 3rd Day of Chinese New Year.

Played some 'homo' game introduced by zhuangyong and yes it was quite fun and exciting but at perhaps the last round we were quite tired and we were just dreading it to be over and done with.

Once again for whatever reasons, i slept with him on the same bed again haha, i mean zhuang yong, no idea why. Then the gossiping session where code names Spiderman, Winnie the Pooh and Storybook came out of no where. I didn't know what was going on until the next day but still very funny though.

I spent 10 bucks today solely for cab. 2 to queensway 2 back from queensway and 6 to chinatown. Sigh.

A well deserved break.

'Randomness'

My Valentine

Really happy to recieve wishes from zhuang yong and really nice flowers from jeffrey and si wei!! Jeffrey's flowers still look good even when i got home and my mother decide to put it in a vase on the coffee table!! And of course the lovely bear from helen.




On another note

















Can You Feel Where Is The Real Heart?



I can't find it.

H for helen

Today went to have dinner with helen since i'm not able to make it tomorrow because of the match against Yj at 530. Anyways the 'fireball steak' was cool at the cineleisure chicago restaurant or dunno what name, but it has got some chicago thingy on its signboard, the one beside subway.

The steak was good. But the rest were a little disappointing. Should be good enough for lunch but not dinner yea.

But though the ambience is not really that fantastic, they play great songs. First by celine dion, then Mariah Carey, then Babyface then Leeann 'Rimes/rhimes'?? The song by her was really nice, not unchained melody but the how can i live without you. yea. that was it!!!

Presents presents tomorrow!!!!!YAY!!!

Folly

oh my god, lowest L1R5 in catholic high this year is 16.

What have we done to get such results compared to them haha.

030207

Slowly but surely i'll get there no matter how bleak what i'm working on is right now. Its before me, and i'll get there.


reasons for being so. legitimate ones i have.

emotions

Its not an emotion. Its a feeling.


Its very special, it simply surges through my chest to push the feeling up into my head and to the eyes.


The more i think of it, the more reptitions there would be.


I'm becoming stronger haha, i can withstand the emotion to continue talking.


Alphabets can't carry intentions and emotions.

Form is temporary, Class is permanent

Look at the title of this post! Its from something Jeffrey once said, and it bears great resonance to what i felt as i had my long hours of break and also when i stepped out of the college.

I do not need moment of brilliances. I need class. In all aspects once again.


How to do that? Hopefully i can work it out.


Things which happened in school today were really heartening.

I discovered during a casual conversation with my friends that AJ actually breeds elitism as much as any other top colleges. Won't elaborate since its not my focus.

I'm edging closer to doing well in my A levels day by day. At least i think so, though the process is rather terribly slow of course. eh but i think slow progress is better than no progress. Nevertheless, its due to various commitments and interests. Well, its part of life and learning, so yea.

Today is a good day.

Good day Bad day

Isn't a good day today.

Something with my family.

Something in the school.

Haha. Seriously why get so worked up? Why employ desperate and extreme measures?

Wasn't really neccessary i thought. But its their choice, not mines.

Let it be then. There's always a way out.

Point

Eh by the way, i don't post lyrics for the sake of posting lyrics.

There's certain point i feel or would want to make in the lyrics that i have pasted.

I don't mean to hit a certain number of posts or anything.

If you care to know.

Awfully fantastic-Better

G N' R

No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better
The hardest part This troubled heart Has never yet been through now We've healed the scars That got their start Inside someone like you now
Well had I known Or I'd been shown back when how long it’d take me To break the charms That brought me harm And all that won't erase me
I never would Not that I could No matter what you'd pay me Replay the part You stole my heart I should have known you're crazy

If all I knew was that with you I'd want someone to save me It'd be enough But just my luck I fell in love and baby all that I wanted was

Now I know you better
You know I'd know better
Now I, know you better

So bittersweet
This tragedy Won't ask for absolution This melody Inside of me Still searches for solution
A twist of fate A change of heart Cures my infatuation A broken heart Provides the spark for my determination

No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better ohh No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better

All that I wanted was

I know you know you know better You know I know you know better Yeah you know me better

(Solo)

I never wanted you to be so full of anger I never wanted you to be somebody else I never wanted you to be someone afraid to know themselves I only wanted you to see things for yourself

(Solo)

All that I wanted was Now I know you better Now we all know better All that I wanted was (Solo)

If I were you I’d manage to Abhor the invitation Of promised love That can’t keep up With your adoration
Just use your head And in the end You’ll find your inspiration To choose your steps That won't regret This kind of aggravation

No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better

Awfully fantastic.

They are really good. Guns N' Roses Chinese Democracy!!! Really way too damn good.



http://www.gunsnroses.us/chinese_democracy/gunsnroses.html#news

What's fate?

Now today, after CDC i just didn't feel like taking a bus home.
So i started walking the usual route from J8 to Catholic High.
I crossed the road as usual like i've always done 2 years ago.
As i was about to reach the other side, having the zebra crossing as the only thing that's separating me and the other side of the road...


So what's this 'Mercedes-Benz-SLR-McLaren' got to do with this?


It zoomed past me, inches away from my feet, while i was about to cross the zebra crossing. (its a silver one by the way)
Certain ideas flooded my mind.
I continued to walk to reach Catholic High.
I stood at the gate for a moment reminsicing what i've accomplished and have not accomplised at this very place.
I continued walking in the prime direction.

And i saw the driver.
He was waiting for someone at the block beside Catholic High.

Who is he?

A f***-tard with some oakley shades.
I didn't break his windscreen or anything.
I bought a packet of soyabean from prime.
And i continued walking.

Logic can't explain certain things or rather many things.
Ok.
A f***-tard driving a SLR. I'm walking my ass off from CDC (though its my choice to walk, could have easily boarded a ride that cost 45 cents).

It's just fate. Just live your life. If it's yours, it's yours. I'm alright.


Oh and i'm trying to post a letter for like 3 days and i just keep on forgetting.

Something about setbacks

You always get to know something new whenever things do not go your way, sooner or later.

Was not feeling that bad that i couldn't go to school today, but just didn't feel like going and its an insane day with quite a few hours of break. Moreover, i felt like i'm in need of a rest, so i did it.

And i got to know something about this as well. Something about something else when i wasn't going to school.

Funny isn't it. heh.

5

I guess everyone is pretty caught up with theri busy lives, in their own ways on some lan shops, some settlers cafe, the hockey semi-D, bowling alley, in the river(not on, cause always capsize), or holding a racquet on the tennis courts, or maybe on field like i do.

Anyways, thats not the main point, its all about having some activities to help you get on with your lives. Who needs hockey, bowling, kayaking, tennis or soccer in the future. Unless you are like Theo-Walcott probably getting 60,000 per week or David Beckham 500,000 PER WEEK.

So here i am or rather recently, i'm stting sights for the future and getting on with things that probably help me to get on with my life, if any of you guys are interested to know.

I'm getting back what is mine's or rather currently getting something that should have been mine's. At least for the moment being, i do not mind as long as i'm featured in some parts of the plan yea, the number on top says it all about this paragraph.

Probably i'll be Rio. But i'll work on my free-kicks from 1/2 way line and get a little insane on this aspect.

Given a chocie i wouldn't want a captain beside me.

And really i pretty much like company offered by you, and really you are significant in my life. I hope its not only for the moment but for a very long period of time yea.

I dare to speak.

离家出走

The lyrics of the song if you guys don't get cantonese. Since its cantonese lyrics, some words doesn't make alot of sense but majority does. Its a must listen.

豁出去漫游不通知友

那快感少有那管想去多久

抱得你未够于这里闷透

才誓死跟你逛尽地球

何必每件壮举都需要理由

伴你去出走

快活而内疚不管举世追究

愿扣上你双手

自繁华浪处到沙丘恋爱

能有幸这样放肆至足够

别再管谁咒你曾经荒谬

闯荡异地亦未枉相恋

超出烦恼的禁忌

视世上人不理

想早晚能见你

曾经反叛也是我运气

天与地年老了不再飞

无那份勇气

怕一世未能沙砺中拥吻

有了你先有这最凄美质感

纵使有地震不因我犯禁

谁话你坏人不减吸引

明知我做错过的总要奉还

但我爱一眼

有自由浩叹都深刻过不散

让你我似走犯

在穷途入教堂进谏上帝

求你让我共爱侣过更多晚

代价高仍爱你曾经荒谬

闯荡异地亦未枉相恋

超出烦恼的禁忌

视世上人不理想

早晚能见你

曾经反叛也是我运气

天与地逃过约束抛开生死

这样也许了不起

但有一日轰烈乏味

就让彼此都别恋他人也不忘记

别个再没法比

疯过后能放弃

回家安乐过亦有运气

不顾忌

才了解喜与悲能以后铭记

Hu……

人有天总怕死才注定别离

2nd Week

Nothing much, just want to say that i love watching movies with you.


Anyways, i'm feeling it. Just hope that its not wrong this time.


Tilt it to my favour. Please.

Putting it behind.

It's a new year.

Four days into new year, problems had already surfaced.

In 2006, i was wondering if i still had the necessary problem solving skills. Problem solving skills as in real life problem solving skills. Because there were really very few problems with such apparent need for attention.

It's going to get out of my way, albeit unsure whether the resolution favours me. I just have to look for alternative divines to mitigate the circumanstances faced.



Its time to complete what's left undone.
CWL

meh q ah

diu. din no dou ng hap zhok. diu.hai gom 'q'

Season of Giving

Its a season for eating!


Had some decent food from jeffrey today! haha.


What are we having on 26th???


Yea baby, i'm getting dizzy after i drinbk more and more easily, no idea why..

Oh anyway, my mother asked me not to drink so often, but she passed me a bottle of 'Hoegarden' when we toast for Christmas!! Haha

I'm going to do home work! Santa is making me a hardworking boy!!!

Merry Christmas to everyone who visits and read this page!

Good Luck! I know you need it!

What technology, damn it.

My com broke down before i went for holidays.


I've sent it for servicing yesterday.


The guy called me today and told me that.

1. My power supply burned.
2. My CD-rom drive burned.
3. My CD-RW drive burned.
4. My hard-drive burned.

All my songs are gone holy mama...

Back to good

Been away for a little while to take a break from the hectic lifestyle that i'm living with, not that i'm espicially hardworking but ermm its still stressful haha.


Taiwan is a wonderful place and I would definitely tag along with Wong if he ever organise another overseas 'tour' yea?! Oh btw saw jion chun's friend there too.


Had a short stint in Hong Kong again, where i did all the shopping. New clothes, shirts, shoes, trousers etc. wonderfully kept the budget low with all the bargains. Ermm not too low actually.

Anyway, bought most of the souvenirs from disney and yup. Disney in HK is not that magical. But took a few photos with disney characters! Mickey, Minnie, Tiger, Goofy and also the beauty(beauty and the beast). That's all from Disney you see, so ya I think ocean park would be a better catch if you're at around my age and seeking some fun in such theme parks. Probably Disney only seem magical for the young haha.


I think I sound very cynical, is that the way you spell it?

I want to visit the Emirates Stadium!


Anyways, having home alone until 23rd. Wha, tons of holiday work on my desk i realised, and I probably can't finish it.

Probably

Maybe I should stop blogging.


And I just did.

Change

I've sensed it.

Change is imminent.

Venom

Hate is too strong a word.
Dislike would and should sound better.

I do my part and perhaps it would be all.


I dislike.

I think they are here to stay.


Always work for yourself.



I'm going to see them again. Lots of work.

Opps

All that matters

I've realised again, this time on my way back from tuition this morning.

Its all about rewards and hardwork, as in life is all about hardwrok and rewards.

Yes 'hardwork', it appears over and over again.


Family and friends, the care and love they give you, are the rewards. Fun and laughter with them are the rewards.

These are things you don't have to pay for for enjoyment.

The rest in life is simply hectic and mundane.



Being materialistic can be simply compared to taking soft drugs, you pay for it for temporary enjoyment, it is simply something that gives you pleasure at that moment. These can never be juxtaposed to what family and friends can share with you.


If my dear friends do not know or have not considered about this 'piece' in life that probably glares at you every now and then. Probably its time.

Erratum

I may and would like to make a correction to 2 posts before this.

FROM: "Work hard, earn lots of fucking money dirty or not. Spend and buy things till i die."

TO: "Work hard, earn lots of money. Spend and buy things till i die"

Why? because I don't want to be in prison and face a LOCKDOWN. It's horrifing, appalling, detestable, disgusting, beastly, awful, sickening, rotten, repulsive and loathsome.


Seriously, watch Prison Break.


I would fancy a Scofield haircut. He's incredibly, surpassingly, conspicuously, remarkably intelligent.


Prison Breaking.

Holy shit.

As much as i'm an influence to anybody that i'm with. I'm easily influenced.


But i know where the bottom line is.


So fuck all of you the dumb fucks out there. I can't help it but to swear since the training yesterday. Ironically, i'm loving it. Look my way.

insane

There is this fucking idea that came to me all of a sudden.


Work hard, earn lots of fucking money dirty or not. Spend and buy things till i die.


And not leave a cent for my son and daughters, if i ever have any.


Insane isn't it?


Its fucking insane, but for a reason.


Its all about the desire.

Verisimilitude

It's really so. This is it.

Success

Today was a great day, apart from the fact that i had to wake up early and hurry to Yishun for yet another 4hours of tuition. Good news and bad news for myself, the hours would soon grow and become 6.

Ironically, I have no desire to teach but I have an unconventional liking for sharing knowledge. The two seems to be identical, but they are simply similar. Put yourself to my position, imagine having to stay 6 hours or probably 6 hours and thrity minutes for movement from one block to another TWO TIMES A WEEK in a Yishun town. (No malice to Yishun, i love the statue in the park that i can see from the train)

I have 3 students on hand now.
First student is rather inteligent but poor in the subject. He makes little attempt to improve on his work but understands what i'm saying all the time. He would change if i 'drop a hint or two' to his mother.
Second student is pretty good for his age at the subject, sad to say he's a bit gay. From my experience in Catholic High, if he doesn't meet some good company he would stay gay all his live. The third, from my first impression he has got attitude, and I like it. It would probably be tough to 'teach' but ya I just like the attitude. Its boring for me and you to talk about all this shit. (glad that you've gone so far)

Hey man, but corny as it seems, me having a 36.25 (take note of the 0.25 its important!) university score IS a successful tutor.

Success Inspires Success
(I shall end here as the post is getting no where, this is what you get when you want to type a decent long entry and it somehow got fucked up because you didn't think it out)

Project Work

Everyone is so busy with their Oral Presentation for their project work. Seriously i have no idea why they are practicing over and over again everyday, everyweek since 2 weeks ago. Im not saying that ots not necessary, but 3 prepared rehearsals are more than enough. There's just no better way to make your classmates bored by introducing them to your 'fantastic' idea every other day.


If every presentation is like DOA, i wouldn't mind, but come on hyroponics, aeroponics, water, racial harmony what more? It's retarded and dumb to go to school to listen to such presentations at 8 everyday when its suppose to be your holidays. I will never do it.


I have nothing more to say and wish you all the best of luck for your Oral Presentations and also 'those' taking your A levels.


If everyone cared by nickelback is quite decent, just realised.


Off to school to hand in some dicky consent form -.-

Otherside

Its always different on the otherside.




I put you first. But where am I?


I feel like 'recess' slotted in between lessons, whether it is meant to mean like this or not. People always assume what i think or how i feel. Assume? People just don't get it. Not even you.

wo shi OSCAR

Yea, interview to be an OGL. Great getaway from the first week of school! CIP hours + time to relax= YAY!


It was fast, went on time started on time, ended early had some fun amusing the 'panel'.


Took questions like a breeze, but maybe haha, as i've told JJ look at the form can already =p.


Gave the right answers they wanted and know that they were happy haha, but the talking to ruler part was quite retarded la. My first was to the ruler, the rest was to them, its all the same.


Anyways dicky Jion Chun interupted, but its still the same as the OSCAR winner never faltered, it gave me some time to take a break lol.



Random stuff apart, OP is really retarded whats the point of presenting everyday? In my opinion, I think self preparation and around 5 rehearsals are more than enough.. Hate it.



Signed my result slip -.-

Money here I come! (freaking random HAHA)

Quiz

Took 2 tests out of boredom. One says that my IQ is 95 and another says that i'm a really good friend that people can count on where by i listen to problems and let you have a shoulder to cry on, exactly the type for a best friend.

So i'm a dumb fuck and a good friend. haha.

But again out of boredom, i clicked on the exactly same options for both the tests, and it gave me results that were worlds apart from my first. haha.

I've realised.

Its Morphing Time I've Got The Power

You're finished.


Transformer!!!


If I don't seem to feel. I'll cease to live.


We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

Snow Patrol-Chasing cars

The Evil Cycle

I didn't know why, i went to play LAN agian today. Wow, once again like any other occasion, it vacums my blue and red notes away.



It is an evil cycle, young chaps owning the LAN shops are earning $10.50 from us every week, 8 of us, that's $84.00, its worse than playing Mah Jiong (maybe not for gedeon haha). How many teenagers out there are being sucked dry by these evil bastards.



Now its them earning money from us.

I say( together with zhuang yong, gedeon, shaun and some others) we would be the 'young chaps' in about 5-6 years time sucking the hell out of the teenagers with our little outlet of maybe 40 computers. We would have a chain of LAN shops in paradiz, peace centre, slegie complex, opposite paradiz everywhere, sucking the hell out of those juveniles who simply can't resist the evil temptation of WarCraft or any other multi-player games. Eventually, we would prbably be having 400 computers generating uncountable amounts to us EVERY YEAR EVERY MONTH EVERY WEEK EVERY DAY EVERY HOUR EVERY MINUTE EVERY SECOND.

Soon... Soon...



Hope it work out and the trend stays HAHA.

Concern

I wouldn't care about anything else anymore.



Nothing is to my concern at the moment.



Exceptions there are. Exception there is, i correct myself.



Everything seems so insignificant now, can even skip tutorials, in AJ.



There's just one reason.

Death

Gaius Julius Caesar falls.



Imagine him falling.



Picture his empire.



Julius has fallen.

Things not meant to be.

What the purpose of a blog? Answer it, quick.


What is a blog when things supposedly should be posted can't be posted?

Perhaps it was never meant to be.



It flashed across my mind to delete this blog.

Since it was never meant to be.



Sometimes, things are meant to happen for something else to happen.

But you would never know.

Time comes leaves fall but you remain...



Think it should really happen.

But perhaps it was never meant to be...

carpe diem

Never settle for anything less.


Maximize. Not any where on your body, but the opportunities that are given to you.






discover me.

on a random note, hockey people looks like a fun bunch. (^.^ you know which group i'm refering to haha)

Coincidence

Supermassive Black Hole

Oh baby dont you know I suffer?
Oh baby can you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretenses
How long before you let me go?

You set my soul alight
You set my soul alight

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the 'supermassive'

I thought I was a fool for no-one
Oh baby I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
And how long before you tell the truth

You set my soul alight
You set my soul alight

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the 'supermassive'

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

It speaks

It speaks how i feel.



咖啡


He just gets it right everytime.

Point to Prove

I stepped into the classroom today, having a point to prove.

I turned the paper over to check the number or pages.

Looks 'do-able'.

I began to plough through the questions and started thinking of formulas and what not.

I began to realise the fate would be somewhat similar.

Hoped for a pass, but thought it's so far away now that i've tried.

But regardless of how badly i've done in this paper, at least now i'm sure that i should be able to promote.

I've started out just to promote, and i've met the 'goal' or rather the aim.

Nothing to be proud of, but i'm willing to accept whatever grades i get to promote, considering how much or rather how little work i've done for nine months.



You feel the shadows over you, and you vow to rise above.

But come on at the end of the day, the word is 'effort' or in simpler or rather more direct terms 'hardwork'.

Looking at my archives, i've mentioned same things over and over again. This issue of putting in hardwork keeps surfacing but nothing had been done.

Sigh. Thank God. Let me get done and over with it tomorrow.


" My father taught me to work; he did not teach me to love it"

Abraham Lincoln

Wild Thoughts

I say anything and everything.



I don't do everything and any thing.

People

Certain people like to do people analysis.

Perhaps they think it would help them to tackle situations with them with less hassle, by understanding or hoping to understand how others act.

Or maybe for the sheer enjoyment they get from understanding others in their own
perspective.

You may have gotten it right for others, but sorry not and probably never for me. haha.

Interesting though as i read, for someone else's point of view of looking at yourself.

Maybe everyone should do something like this.

But not everyone has the time. haha.

I guess you're just too free and want to find something to do.

You've got some of us wrong.

Anyways I've taken time 1day and something before my papers to talk about what you've blogged probably 2 months ago. haha.

Don't take what i say too seriously even if you realised it were you that i'm talking about.

Thank god for the technology and search engines.



I think i can promote, but let's not talk about quality grades. I'm not capable of it at this moment and state, be realistic and don't pin high hopes on me, my brother. Yes, my brother, anywyas thank you for the confidence and the thought to be concerned about my 'future'.

I respect you after what you did yesterday, really. It was quite beyond your means and you didn't mind stretching yourself to a certain extent. Frankly speaking, i wouldn't have done it. I would have the thought and if i had the ability i would have done it, but if i was at your state, i wouldn't. I'm shameful for being this way as i compare myself to you.

But once again that makes me different from you, although we have some uncanny similarities. And be confident, if you read this don't smile at me. If i was a girl i would have considered you if you were a lil more serious. HAHA

May god and deities bless me for the things that i have to go through. And i don't want to think about my destiny.

PS: I really want to play in the English Premier League to have Arsene Wenger as my coach. As much as you want Takeshi Kaneshiro or Bradd Pitt as your boyfriend or Keira Knightley or Angelina Jolie as your girlfriend. But dreams are dreams and fantasies are fantasies.











This world would be much better if there were more mutual understanding.

Driving me nuts

YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
I REALLY CANT WAIT
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
FR PROMOS
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
TO END
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
me2
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
OMG
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
but the day b4 it ends u cfm freak out
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
its driving me nuts
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
you mean my last paper ah
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
HAHAHA YEA LA
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
FUCK
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
yea
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
haha
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
i hope tonight got earthquake
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
why so vulgar
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
and sars
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
and everyth all at once
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
and bombc
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
s
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
then they cancel promos
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
u might as well say terrorist bomb some school
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
then all schools closed
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
then the terrorists got sars
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
then we all go shopping
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
YAY
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
lol
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
ok byebye i go sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep



Yea. I hope so too, but let's come back to reality.Sigh. It's driving alot of people nuts.
Take a break if you find that you are like her. Haha.

A reason

I had no reason to complain.

Time and Again

Now i got to know the meaning to the phrase' thats what friends are for'. I wasn't like this say 4 years ago. I wanted to become an even better person, and i became one, according to my own set of criteria for judgement of course.


Time and again i resisted it. I resisted the thing in me to go back to what i was. But now, finally and fortunately the people around me got the better of me.


I should have gone back to myself long time ago. Not when i'm at this pathetic and deplorable state.


What's the thing that got the beter of me? 'Humans' i say, 'society' i say. Sounds so cliche but what the hell, its the truth.


Where is the thing that i'm looking for? I've found one or maybe a few. But its moving away or growing weak.


So in all... A rational mind tells you that you should get back and be a bastard, instead of enduring and tiding through what it is now.


The word for today is 'unconditional'. Have you? Or have you once?


Anyway, thank you for making me stay up till the morning to make it possible for me to think through what i've been doing.

FEI YU QING!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7TSUGPKZFjE



thats the K-ge version, now the mtv. decently nice la, espicially the FEI YU QING part haha

climbing the walls

Close your eyes, make a wish
That this could last forever
If only you could stay with me now
So tell me what it is
That keeps us from each other now
Yeah it's coming to get me
You're under my skin

No I can't let you go
You're a part of me now
Caught by the taste of your kiss
And I don't wanna know
The reason why I
Can't stay forever like this
Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss you

Take my hand, take my life
Just don't take forever
And let me feel your pain kept inside
There's gotta be a way
For you and I together now
Yeah it's coming to get me
You're under my skin

No I can't let you go
You're a part of me now
Caught by the taste of your kiss
And I don't wanna know
The reason why I
Can't stay forever like this
Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss you



and I hope You understand how much I really feel

Gone For Good

That's it.


I'll always have faith, since its the fruit that I've wanted all along.


It was once great, never would I have thought this would happen.


But well, nothing is for sure, things come and go, events happen and there we go.


I prayed hard for many things, given up my future for it.


But what can i do now, even when it has lost its shine?


I worked and given the most that I could have given,


its not whithin my control anymore.


I don't want to talk about it anymore, its his life.


I've done one last thing and I hope he would do it for his good.


I want to tell everyone 'that's my boy!'


What's love when you've never tasted it?

Book

Leviathan by Thomas Hobbes is a good read.


Thats all. Not really in the mood to blog or whatsoever.


Come and go, make sure i'm with the flow.


I'm always there.


Perhaps it would be another year.


This is really the final straw, I just hope that i care.


It makes no sense since its my affair.


No remorse as I'm the chair.


Whatever it is, there ain't any flare.


Routine to do, then why its there.


You have a choice, please do care.



It's killing me.


Whatever People Say I Am, That's What I'm Not--Arctic Monkeys

The Game

I WANT TO PLAY MAHJIONG!


I DESPERATELY WANT TO PLAY MAHJIONG!


I HEALY REALLY WANT TO PLAY MAHJIONG!


I WANT MY DONG NAN XI BEI ZHONG FA BAI!


I WANT TO PLAY!


I WANT TO PLAY!


I WANT TO PLAY!


Promotional Examinations can get lost anot?

Hocus Pocus

In general, I think certain things have to stop and more emphasis should be placed on things which are more important, essential and determining.


My mother is right, and she always is, at least at times where i'm not bent on doing something i want to do at that point of time.


As it goes through your mind after it had taken place, you feel that it wasn't necessary. For whatever reasons, you cling on to it, helplessly.


Sound pathetic and squalid isn't it? It's all about Catholic High. Perhaps it would be different, perhaps perhaps perhaps.


I'm the director of my own movie, I know i know and i know.


Something have to get in me. That something which i'm still searching.


Somehow i think i know what it is, contradictory huh? but it's just so distant.


It might just somehow happen, i hope not. Really hope it doesn't work this way. I'll do whatever that is necessary. Perhaps perhaps perhaps.


Off i go getting myself onto the path of degredation.

A winner is someone who
recognizes his God-given talents, works his tail off to develop them into skills
and uses these skills to accomplish his goals.

~Larry Bird~

Or maybe it just isn't there.

Random, but not so random it is

You get what you give, not karma exactly but along those lines.


And i'm becoming more childish nowadays because of this thing that i'm in. Not that i'm much less before, but its more pronounced now. Its not bad or what, ok it is bad to confess.


Don't blame me in the future whatever it might be.


Its shopping tomorrow, it sounds gay, but maybe just call it buying things haha =)


If you show it to your teachers, show it to me. (its a riddle haha)


And i won't say it if i don't feel it.


random, but not so random.

Solutions?

Willow trees survive storms, whereas sturdier types, like the oak, topple over. Why? Because willows are exceptionally flexible. They bend, then go back up.

Subconsciousness

What a day it was. Yea still, happy since i've he finally spelled it out, although we acknowledge something quite profound but not quite profound which i knew since my years in catholic high.


On the way to Toa Payoh, i thought about problems. I'm perfectly fine ya. I mean problems or crisis in general, those that i've had, not at the present. It came to me that you have to really weigh your own priorities before making any real long-term commitments, i don't mean that there are any 'bogus' long-term commitments, but rather i'm driving at those which you can't realy get yourself out, even if situation seems bleak or unfavourable. Consequences are dire, but there's always a solution. But what if sometimes it doesn't.


Nothing fantastic from soccer, i'm the first one to blog about it i guess. Sorry jingjiat and giddy for coming to support. As anyone can see, we lacked depth from defence, and we lacked fitness all over. But i would still like to blame the ball =P, it was really heavy and couldn't really be lifted, so ya, embarassing scoreline. (i'm not going to say it, because it really isn't what we're capable of and there are a few erm blooopeeerss from our keeper that erm attributed to this) But we were the weaker team, no fitness, no teamwork, lets dive into the transfer market and hopefully get some good transfers like what Aston Villa did, EPL is getting stronger and stronger by day since Roman came.


Took a long bus ride and its still quite the same. 'Enjoy' is not the word, rather I find my time well spent for the few hours.


Just if anyone and everyone can be more responsible for the enviornment =P, i take Geography, or used to, random.


All these things mentioned in this post have got something to do with subconsciousness, so be wary of it.


No reason why I'm blogging at such hours, just that I can't really sleep.


Get your priorities right, message sent i hope.

In The End

(It starts with)
One thing / I don?t know why
It doesn?t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It?s so unreal
Didn?t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn?t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing / I don?t know why
It doesn?t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I?m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren?t the way they were before
You wouldn?t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I
I tried so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter

I?ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There?s only one thing you should know
I?ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There?s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter

Ghost Of You

Summer's ended and without a trace
time goes by - while you remain
Funny how I thougt I walked on through
with my heart in one

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

How I tried to get you of my mind
but you return - all the time
I believed I could just let you go
like the fool I am

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Oh baby why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

I've been trying to release you
to get my feet back on the ground
Still I need my hope to hold on to
even if I know i should back away
It's just a part of me that I can't erase

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

Baby, baby why
Anyway I try I'm still reminded
(the ghost of you)
Anywhere I go I keep coliding with
(the ghost of you)
I've given up I just can't fight it
(the ghost of you)

Everytime I look away I see
the ghost of you

26 Aug 2006

This is the day that i didn't feel like celebrating.

Sorry.




I thought real hard and i realised that the rate at which the list on the left gets shorter would definitely outrun the rate of the list getting longer.




Believe in me, believe in yourself..

I'm a lover, not a bugger.

The crystals i find on your face worth a million, don't drop any of it anymore.




This is one of those days when fate gets in your way or someone's way.

You know its coming, but can't do nuts about it. It frustrates you and you decide not to do anything anymore. When it comes you want to do so much, but then you realise its too late.




Don't use examples in reality to reason logically with me, because its all based on circumanstances.





hug the mAd. ( zzy and giddy would know what i mean=P)




I know the order is kind of messed up hope you all don't mind, i can't do anything even if you all do.( move your cursor to the top right, and give it a left click if you get confused, that's all i can do) The 4line spacing is teh separation of brief thoughts. I need some rest.

The Times

First Picture is definitely myself.
Second Picture is me and my brother! I'm the smaller one of course!

Chasing Blindly After- The Endless Pursuit

We live to chase, to search, to earn, to wait and maybe to gain.

This 'process' would you call it a process, it is rather a routine which never ends.



Since you were born, you wait for milk.

Next you ask for toys. In a way you use your smile to 'earn' for toys in return.

When you know how to talk, you begin to ask for it. Some parents would make it in form of trade. For example, when you do well in spelling, they would reward you.

When you grow older, stepping into the first 6 years of fromal education, the government begins to provide you with an incentive. In hope to 'tempt' you to go for the 'carrot', and hopefully contribute to the nation someday.

In the last year of the fundamental education, your parents and relatives tells you all about schools and instituitions to go to, but actually you didn't give a damn. But, somehow, you'd listen to them and heed their advices..

Then the real torture begins when u work tirelessly for A s and B s. You fall into the abyss of darkness and working for the 'desired' outcome becomes your only aim in life, never would you realise what you would have missed out.

You describe these people as focussed.

As soon as the government brings you out of the education system, you begin to truly work for yourself as you have to feed maybe not your family but yourself at least...


Its basically alot of bullshit, but point is that this is no difference to all that you have been through in the first 9-18 years of your life.. the 'carrot' simply changes its form.. and somehow it never ends.. it continues to morph and change its form..

Eventually, you still have to work and catch up with reality no matter how hardworking you are.. everytime you take a break out of the immeasurable pool of pain, you realise that there is more work waiting for you to be done..

It simply never ends.

Maybe adopt the way of life from a particular religion and you may reduce the scale of the endless pursuit.. i.e be a monk? or a priest?

You still have to 'work' for food, but the purpose perhaps is a more honourable task??

think about it my friends and decide how you want to live your life since you know it happens all over again.. if you didn't know NOW i'm telling you this.. so maybe you would want to do something..

Maybe this isn't the best showing of my somewhat limited linguistic ability but the content is there, the fruit of my thoughts is there..


By me once agian.

A Man Back To Business

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101

Yeap, this is post number hundred and one, and I've decided to dedicate this post to you, Jacky Cheung, the best singer of my time.

无求甚么 无寻甚么
突破天地 但求夜深
奔波以后 能望见你
你可否 知道么
平凡亦可 平淡亦可
自有天地 但求日出
清早到后 能望见你
那已经 很好过
当身边的 一切如风
是你让我 找到根蒂
不愿离开 祇愿留低 情是永不枯萎
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我发觉我最爱与你编写
以后明天 的深夜
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我最爱你与我这生一起
那惧明天 风高路斜

名是甚么 财是甚么
是好滋味 但如在生
朝朝每夜 能望见你
那更加 的好过
当身边的一切如风 是你让我找到根蒂
不愿离开 祇愿留低 情是永不枯萎
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我发觉我最爱与你编写
以后明天 的深夜
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我最爱你与我这生一起
那惧明天 风高路斜

而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我发觉我最爱与你编写
以后明天 的深夜
而每过一天 每一天这情深者
便爱你多些 再多些然后再多一些
我最爱你与我这生一起
那惧明天 风高路斜

That's all for post 101.

A Detour

Do you every realise its when you are away from the crowd, being alone, you would find and realise what is really important to you? I treasure what I have now, and I would put in hardwork for 'the' future.


Ironically, you often place them in lower priroity when you are indulging yourself in fun and perhaps entertaining activities.


I'm physically sick. All because of the subject with a self-defeating objective (shall not elaborate)...

Slept at 3+ last thursday, drank red bull to play soccer on friday, slept late once again.
Decided to be a good boy and woke up early to take breakfast with mum.
Went Queensway to collect jerseys and fireworks and night till slightly late, slept at 2.
Sundat woke up for tennis, rested a while in the afternoon and went to play street with brother despite being tired, just wanted to have some activities with him...
Slept late on that day for PW once again...
End up falling sick and have to be at disposal for the virus that exists in my body...


I want to take a detour in order to make things go more swiftlyand more smooth sailing for me, that it would be.


On a random separate note, in my opinion we should just school for 4 days and have 1 weekday off isn't it.

Key Inspirations

Yes, i mean inspirations.

I've finally caught lakehouse at the movies with my brother and mom. Its not that bad isn't it i mean the movie, i wonder how one can fall asleep? But maybe its due to the fact that I've missed out 10 minutes of it, cause my brother, my mom and I for no particular reason went late for the movie that we've booked and perhaps it triggers me to try to understand what's going on on the screen..

Such a sweet boy right, accompany my mother to movies, haha.

Why am I still up at this hour?

Damn Project Work, or rather damn my group leader. Yes thank you for passing me the file, WITHOUT the things i've conceptually mapped out to include in the Written Report, it is a pain in the ass for me to think what I've thought 6 days ago. I'm quite sure I'll only do one draft for the group and that's it.

Another group mate and I mapped out the whole project but what have we got so far? There must be a reason behind it isn't it. And I've got to the brink of fustration and I've decided to CALL IT A DAY.

Let us get reprimanded by the teacher, I don't mind, let's play the game known as PUSHING THE BLAME, haha good luck to my leader.

I've straightened out my thoughts and now its time to hocus pocus and focus lest its too late, of course it applies to other matters too, haha. Thank you Lakehouse, a movie when you're mentally tired can do wonders!

I still have a match tomorrow, hope i don't break my leg or whatsoever, pray hard for me everyone.

Let's get to bed!

Idea

SAY yes to consumerism.


Although it eat up/steal/rob you of your identity of any sorts.


But it works, it improves your life, and make you a happier individual.


So say YES to consumerism with me now!


quite random i guess but this idea really rocks.

Priorities

I've just realised that i'm being lazy again. This isn't new i know, but somehow i just don't feel like doing work.. But i think i may face the consequence of being re****ed if i don't start working NOW!

I know I would have to do it somehow, but i don't know how.

Don't laugh please if u are laughing your asses of now..

Its just a few more weeks away i mean the pro**s, and it would decide my fate for the next year. I guess I have to put in the effort now..

Because I don't want to waste a year in that worn out, self-proclaiming happening place..I just want to get over with it.. Not only with the place, but with the pointless studying of information..

AND practicing of mathematics sums.. It's just so boring, rotting my brain out.

I guess my mum is getting worried for me now, I know i shouldn't let her be so.. but ya the only solution is to work.. but i need that 'something' to once again give me back the drive to work.

I don't even know what that 'something' is in the first place. I don;t know if this is good or bad.

BUT for now, i have my new Vivacitors jersey to look forward to! haha, heard that its fantastically OWNAGE from xinxiang.

I guess my messages going to exceed like MAD this month, haha but its ok.. (=


Luckily i have you, soccer and my friends..

Analysis

JJ asked me to take this test, so i did, here's the results.

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		9
Acts of Service:		7
Words of Affirmation:		5
Physical Touch:		5
Receiving Gifts:		4

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

What it is

"Getting people to like you is merely the other side of liking them."

~ Norman Vincent Peale~