Dumb

I think, i'm just thinking that, Complacency got the better of me.


Its not the first time haha, when will i learn to give my best?


Economics was just upsetting, usually can get by with little effort, wOw but on wednesday i felt it didn't go too well, there goes 1 A.. and i'm only aiming for 2A. How upleasant this is, for me and my attitude.

Objective

So last night i made this decision to go to the airport to have dinner with my friends who were already there studying. Travelled from north to east.


A little out of my mind, but it just shows how much love i have for you guys HAHA.


Anyways, the plan initially was just dinner, but they suggested to study, so i packed my bag and moved. I knew there isn't a possibility that we can really study together, we'll definitely talk, so that was what happened all night long. Took 3 meals of Macs there -.- and left to take a rest at Jeffrey's place before going home early in the morning.


But somewhere in between, we've talked about how significant A levels is to your life, will it be a measure of success, or a determinant of success. Its not really that interesting, but rather amusing to see two 18year olds in the midst of taking A levels talking about this.


Anyway, what i think is that it is not a determinant of success and certainly not a measure of success, not simply because i'm not at the top end of results at the moment, but my believe as always. Yes, perhaps its a measure of success for a student, are we students? I think we're not, we're made to do a thousand things and study, so we're not merely students haha. You can grind out 4As, 3months of intense studying will give you that. But you can't develop personalities and character. But hardwork definitely pays, regardless of context. I'd rather say hardwork is a determinant of success, certainly so.


Whatever it is i will still prepare for the remaining papers just like how i've always done it, haha A levels is just another examination to me, if i can do excellent GOOD, if not, let's just move on. I couldn't care less what other people's grades are as long as i can get into varsity and do some decent course. Wish the aspiring lawyers, dentists, doctors, pharmacists whatever, good luck.

Realise the assumption?

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I should really just try and be myself.

坏人

谁做事会没有自私的想法，我也有，但对我的朋友我做不出。


希望这不会变。


这对我珍惜的人和东西都一样。

Climate N' Enviornment

How apt. Haha.

If you have no idea, look closely at what Singapore has just launched.

Oh anyway, my mother is all behind me in the examinations, not new, but just had to say.
Though i know my brother is rather very more than nice, haha i didn't expect him to call my mother to ask how i'm doing, haha.

Hurry, let's get over with it.

Cambridge and MOE surprise me everytime.

A Long Way

I've come a long way.

One of my friends said, everything doesn't matter, only the results does. True?


Everybody is talking about the farewell. I'm not trying to be different, but i think there's not much to say.

You miss the people, not the place. The place just brings back memories of time you've spent with the people. I'm not trying to say that the place isn't important but to me it isn't. The memories you share are between your friends and you. But you share the place with everyone who have had memories. Its all about the numbers isn't it.

Had good teachers, had very nice friends from SJI, a school which i used to think produce arrogrant scums. I'm quite sure now to not generalise. Also, the western food store auntie who's so nice to me, its not about the bargains i get from her, its more than what others who complain at mass civics see. Don't generalise. Though its over, i will still say i didn't have a fantastic class, but i couldn't ask for more, what have not been done is that we haven't tried certain things.

So, all in all, not much memories, and i've worn the school badge for days which my fingers can count. But Anderson have great teachers, at least most of them are good. Its all about numbers.

There's so much to say, but so little i actually want to say. But it stops here, right here.

I want to make the world a better place, i feel its my destiny, haha. (rather random, just rather.)

Serving the Nation

Good evening Mr CHEUNG WAI LUN.Your enlistment date is not finalised yet. An enlistment notice will be sent to you two months before your enlistment date. For further enquiries, please call our Call Center at 1800-3676767 or email to us at contact@ns.sg.

Looks like immediate life after A levels for guys is all about NS.

I'm not really enthusiastic about it at all, but can't help logging in to the webby to check cos all my friends already knew their enlistment date. Guess its due to my PES haha.

Clarity

I know whats going on, but i don't want to know whats going on.


I should just get myself sorted and tie myself to my desk.


Once i give myself a break say after a while of studying, i'll never return.. Sleep on the sofa(3/4hours), use the computer, play winning11, look outside the window, watch tv, read book, wahtever, but never back to the desk.


I can't believe what i myself is doing , its pressing, but i'm still not working, another wasted weekend..

Whts up.

So now there's nothing much to talk about except for the A levels coming up i see.

Anyways, i do want to read law, because i think it'll definitely work my brain.
But whats the point? Because i don't want to be a lawyer, i don't want to work 'n' hours a week and move towards partnership.

Hah let's not think too far, how to get into law having not done well in two H2 subjects? Think I'll just settle in some arts/social science courses, i think i'll have a comfortable life then, without all the numbers and algebra.

O.o so why push so hard? Maybe i just don't want a disgusting certificate.

Also, its really lame to have taken science subjects. I think i would have done way better with Economics, Geography, Mathematics and Chemistry. Funny combination, but i think it'll work fantastic for me.

Oh also i've been thinking about law internship, but from kenneths' experience, i don't think i want to go for it, unless i can make the cut for the course. I don't want to spend time doing mundane work, if theres even work to do. LOL

I'll study harder though, I'm convinced.

Run

I want to leave this country, maybe for a moment, maybe for good.

Unfortunately/fortunately i'll still have to stay for another 2 years. Maybe I'll change my mind then, leaving nothing behind.

How i wish it was the same all again.
One wrong step and everything goes down like a domino, it falls so fast that i can't pull the plug, i end up hurting myself.

I want to leave, and take a break.

Am I really so nasty? I don't think so really.

Escape

I feel like changing the skin of the blog, but it takes hell lot of time to personalise and transfer certain features..


Anyone to help me do it??


I'm not mature enough haha, as far as i used to think i was. Moving into adulthood for real this time i guess.

I appreciate.

Thank you to all my friends, always there for me. I really appreciate.

Special call out especially to: Jion Chun, Jeffrey, Siwei, Foo, Jing Jiat, XX, Justin, Darryl


Also,
Gouthaman, Hweeteng, Yuying, Anqi, Kaiyang(somewhat inspiring blog articles)


Small statements and questions do help to make my day better most of the time.

Lost Loss

I'm at lost. Haven't done anything for 3 days. I'm really just lousy, weak mind.

Beatles Lied

Love was never an easy game to play, even if it was yesterday.

I'm fully aware of all my actions and its consequences. It was a good friday night. I'm aware of how people are feeling, perhaps thats my best personal skill i guess. Good happy hour drink, good Starbucks milk tea, good sitting at the 'biker gang' spot HAHA.

I'm sorry for you too, as i made it clear during the time, its more than what it seems to be. There are so many things on hand now, both in my hands and yours. I'm glad and sorry and everything was intentional as well as my swift departure.

Maybe everybody is not ready for it.

Elliot Yamin

I don't get bored listening to it 1000 times.

Moving On

I just need something new i guess or maybe i don't, just not what i'm facing now.



I'm empty, haha so how can i write good essays.


I NEED SOMETHING


Particularly like this graphic,cuz it resembles the old time comics i used to read.



Sometimes, its not up to you.
To put it in chinese： 天时，地利，人和。
Tell me if I'm wrong, my phone is always switched on.

Leading the Race and maybe chasing

I expect everyone in the education system to have experienced running, since you know everyone runs 2.4km for the Physical Fitness Test.

This is on the assumption that its sort of a race, and you want to win the race.

Its always difficult to run behind the pack when you start, reason being the difference in pace and all, so you want to be at the front. Anyway, as the race proceeds, it becomes more and more difficult to catch up with whoever is running in front of you. Wouldn't you agree???

This is the game I'm constantly playing this 2years. This is the last time for reversal, maybe not in real terms, perhaps at least consoling if i manage a decent finish.

Oh my.

Used to

I think I used to be happy.

At least I remembered that i was a little happier back then.

I'm Breathing

Please take some time to Listen To This Song (again).



Please take some time to Listen To This Song (again).

Its Just Me

Start with the end in mind. This statement is made by some philosopher whom i can't remember.

They embed great lessons. It draws you to understand what life is about, or hopefully give you a better idea how to live a life. Having a better understanding and hopefully live life in a better way.

Confucius have also mentioned about realising life with age. Can't remember the exact statement.

They are all philosophers with great wisdom and inquiring about truths, perhaps what we call facts of life.


Can we ever know the 'right' way to life? Or must we fault or are we made to fault? There are 2 school of thoughts one of which is rationalizing-guided by logic, i can't remember the second.


This incoherence somewhat sums things up.

I take things too easily though i do value them.

Its hard to quantise how much i value various 'things', trying my best i can only say they mean 'alot' to me and affects me. Its just very hard to stop myself from being this way but i can't seem to accept. I can't even accept me being like this myself, so how do i expect any other person to accept this 'reasoning'. I only know i value them.



The more you know, the less you understand. --Lao tse
Is this true?


The more you learn, the more you know. The more you know, the more you forget. The more you forget, the less you know. So why bother to learn? --George Bernard Shaw
This is just paradoxical.


A man is like a fraction whose numerator is what he is and whose denominator is what he thinks of himself. The larger the denominator the smaller the fraction. -- Leo Tolstoy
This is true.

/This is crap/