Climate N' Enviornment

How apt. Haha.

If you have no idea, look closely at what Singapore has just launched.

Oh anyway, my mother is all behind me in the examinations, not new, but just had to say.
Though i know my brother is rather very more than nice, haha i didn't expect him to call my mother to ask how i'm doing, haha.

Hurry, let's get over with it.

Cambridge and MOE surprise me everytime.

A Long Way

I've come a long way.

One of my friends said, everything doesn't matter, only the results does. True?


Everybody is talking about the farewell. I'm not trying to be different, but i think there's not much to say.

You miss the people, not the place. The place just brings back memories of time you've spent with the people. I'm not trying to say that the place isn't important but to me it isn't. The memories you share are between your friends and you. But you share the place with everyone who have had memories. Its all about the numbers isn't it.

Had good teachers, had very nice friends from SJI, a school which i used to think produce arrogrant scums. I'm quite sure now to not generalise. Also, the western food store auntie who's so nice to me, its not about the bargains i get from her, its more than what others who complain at mass civics see. Don't generalise. Though its over, i will still say i didn't have a fantastic class, but i couldn't ask for more, what have not been done is that we haven't tried certain things.

So, all in all, not much memories, and i've worn the school badge for days which my fingers can count. But Anderson have great teachers, at least most of them are good. Its all about numbers.

There's so much to say, but so little i actually want to say. But it stops here, right here.

I want to make the world a better place, i feel its my destiny, haha. (rather random, just rather.)

Serving the Nation

Good evening Mr CHEUNG WAI LUN.Your enlistment date is not finalised yet. An enlistment notice will be sent to you two months before your enlistment date. For further enquiries, please call our Call Center at 1800-3676767 or email to us at contact@ns.sg.

Looks like immediate life after A levels for guys is all about NS.

I'm not really enthusiastic about it at all, but can't help logging in to the webby to check cos all my friends already knew their enlistment date. Guess its due to my PES haha.

Clarity

I know whats going on, but i don't want to know whats going on.


I should just get myself sorted and tie myself to my desk.


Once i give myself a break say after a while of studying, i'll never return.. Sleep on the sofa(3/4hours), use the computer, play winning11, look outside the window, watch tv, read book, wahtever, but never back to the desk.


I can't believe what i myself is doing , its pressing, but i'm still not working, another wasted weekend..

Whts up.

So now there's nothing much to talk about except for the A levels coming up i see.

Anyways, i do want to read law, because i think it'll definitely work my brain.
But whats the point? Because i don't want to be a lawyer, i don't want to work 'n' hours a week and move towards partnership.

Hah let's not think too far, how to get into law having not done well in two H2 subjects? Think I'll just settle in some arts/social science courses, i think i'll have a comfortable life then, without all the numbers and algebra.

O.o so why push so hard? Maybe i just don't want a disgusting certificate.

Also, its really lame to have taken science subjects. I think i would have done way better with Economics, Geography, Mathematics and Chemistry. Funny combination, but i think it'll work fantastic for me.

Oh also i've been thinking about law internship, but from kenneths' experience, i don't think i want to go for it, unless i can make the cut for the course. I don't want to spend time doing mundane work, if theres even work to do. LOL

I'll study harder though, I'm convinced.

Run

I want to leave this country, maybe for a moment, maybe for good.

Unfortunately/fortunately i'll still have to stay for another 2 years. Maybe I'll change my mind then, leaving nothing behind.

How i wish it was the same all again.
One wrong step and everything goes down like a domino, it falls so fast that i can't pull the plug, i end up hurting myself.

I want to leave, and take a break.

Am I really so nasty? I don't think so really.

Escape

I feel like changing the skin of the blog, but it takes hell lot of time to personalise and transfer certain features..


Anyone to help me do it??


I'm not mature enough haha, as far as i used to think i was. Moving into adulthood for real this time i guess.

I appreciate.

Thank you to all my friends, always there for me. I really appreciate.

Special call out especially to: Jion Chun, Jeffrey, Siwei, Foo, Jing Jiat, XX, Justin, Darryl


Also,
Gouthaman, Hweeteng, Yuying, Anqi, Kaiyang(somewhat inspiring blog articles)


Small statements and questions do help to make my day better most of the time.

Lost Loss

I'm at lost. Haven't done anything for 3 days. I'm really just lousy, weak mind.

Beatles Lied

Love was never an easy game to play, even if it was yesterday.

I'm fully aware of all my actions and its consequences. It was a good friday night. I'm aware of how people are feeling, perhaps thats my best personal skill i guess. Good happy hour drink, good Starbucks milk tea, good sitting at the 'biker gang' spot HAHA.

I'm sorry for you too, as i made it clear during the time, its more than what it seems to be. There are so many things on hand now, both in my hands and yours. I'm glad and sorry and everything was intentional as well as my swift departure.

Maybe everybody is not ready for it.

Elliot Yamin

I don't get bored listening to it 1000 times.

Moving On

I just need something new i guess or maybe i don't, just not what i'm facing now.



I'm empty, haha so how can i write good essays.


I NEED SOMETHING


Particularly like this graphic,cuz it resembles the old time comics i used to read.



Sometimes, its not up to you.
To put it in chinese： 天时，地利，人和。
Tell me if I'm wrong, my phone is always switched on.

Leading the Race and maybe chasing

I expect everyone in the education system to have experienced running, since you know everyone runs 2.4km for the Physical Fitness Test.

This is on the assumption that its sort of a race, and you want to win the race.

Its always difficult to run behind the pack when you start, reason being the difference in pace and all, so you want to be at the front. Anyway, as the race proceeds, it becomes more and more difficult to catch up with whoever is running in front of you. Wouldn't you agree???

This is the game I'm constantly playing this 2years. This is the last time for reversal, maybe not in real terms, perhaps at least consoling if i manage a decent finish.

Oh my.

Used to

I think I used to be happy.

At least I remembered that i was a little happier back then.

I'm Breathing

Please take some time to Listen To This Song (again).



Please take some time to Listen To This Song (again).

Its Just Me

Start with the end in mind. This statement is made by some philosopher whom i can't remember.

They embed great lessons. It draws you to understand what life is about, or hopefully give you a better idea how to live a life. Having a better understanding and hopefully live life in a better way.

Confucius have also mentioned about realising life with age. Can't remember the exact statement.

They are all philosophers with great wisdom and inquiring about truths, perhaps what we call facts of life.


Can we ever know the 'right' way to life? Or must we fault or are we made to fault? There are 2 school of thoughts one of which is rationalizing-guided by logic, i can't remember the second.


This incoherence somewhat sums things up.

I take things too easily though i do value them.

Its hard to quantise how much i value various 'things', trying my best i can only say they mean 'alot' to me and affects me. Its just very hard to stop myself from being this way but i can't seem to accept. I can't even accept me being like this myself, so how do i expect any other person to accept this 'reasoning'. I only know i value them.



The more you know, the less you understand. --Lao tse
Is this true?


The more you learn, the more you know. The more you know, the more you forget. The more you forget, the less you know. So why bother to learn? --George Bernard Shaw
This is just paradoxical.


A man is like a fraction whose numerator is what he is and whose denominator is what he thinks of himself. The larger the denominator the smaller the fraction. -- Leo Tolstoy
This is true.

/This is crap/

What I Want.

Texas



Maldives.



Galveston




I will buy a beach house one day, be it in Singapore(probably pretty too expensive), India, Australia. Anywhere, as long as i can enjoy the sheer tranquility, sunshine, sunrise, sunset and warm breezes.


But who will be share the experience with me?
Will the person be you?

Dreams

Lets talk about dreams.

I presume that you have dreams or have had dreams.


First question would be how far away are you from your dreams?

For me, pretty real far. I don't know why perhaps the dreams that you have are relative to the state that you are in then. So as you move on in life when the situation changes and you grow up, you generally and ineveitably move further and further away from your childhood dreams or dreams you had in the early years of teenage.


Second question being-Do you still relish achieving the dreams? Or perhaps you have new dreams in your mind or maybe you have forgotten all about what you have originally dreamt of?Or even simply feel that a dream is just a dream.

The best would be the first or the second highlighted. Why so? I feel that for the first, those dreams would be innocent which are likely to reflect your character. No not your character, it would be more appropriate to say your nature. Characters are moulded. So it reflects your nature, your ambitions, your instincts, or even your destiny. In my opinion for the second, it shows your character. It reflects a more realistic dream so as to say since you're moving on in life with more experiences and in all understanding yourself better and knowing what your potential is all about. So similarly to the first, it reflects your ambitions, maybe courage, your wants and even your desires. Nevertheless, its good. It provides you with the impetus to work hard and might be a panacea when you meet difficulties since it is likely to encourage you to fight on.

If you've forgotten about your dreams or if you have never thought of what you might like to be, its time to think seriously for one. You are missing out on all the above mentioned. In my opinion, its not that you are realistic and living within your means. it shows how feeble and weak you are to not believe in your own abilities and strength and to simply accept everything given to you. You are just too caught up with your everyday life and chasing for things blindly.

Its different with a dream.
You are in pursuit of your happiness your dreams.
Who cares even if its just a pursuit.
You are at least trying to make yourself happy and worthwhile.


Live your dream(s).



If you agree then tell me about it. I would like to know.

Need to Change

Hey, i've just realised a trend.

All of us haven't been doing well, academically haha.
'US' being Luvis, Bryan, Zhuang Yong, Xin Xiang, Shaun, Steiner, Jion Chun/Jeffrey/Jing Jiat/Jeremy=>slightly better.

And maybe should just change your name to start with 'J' to do slightly better LOL.

But still mediocre.HAHAHA


Need to change this awful trend of 2-6.

A Balance

Its not in the balance. Its awfuly titlted to one side long time ago and now its tilted to another. I think I have to always forsake something in order to gain something, or maybe gain something before losing somethings.


Feeling really off. Its nowhere here nor there only my Indian friend can understand cause he's in exactly the same situation and he feels the same. Pity him and me. Not feeling sad but can't feel happy. So i would rather say i'm sort of deviod of human feelings and emotions and its really bad.


Times when you are not feeling too good, i'll offer something. Now when i'm in this situation its not even words. Probably i shouldn't even ask for anything. Cause its all about giving isn't it? Cause it works the other way too when others are giving lots to me and i don't give more than a damn about them. Maybe its Karma maybe its all about the balance.


I thank my friends once again. And yes my mother.

I seriously don't know if next is pay back time or enjoy walawala time.


They say alwasy hope for the better. Do something when you feel like it.
Oh anyway not really into the emo state cause i can't even really tell how i'm feeling haha.