In The End

(It starts with)
One thing / I don?t know why
It doesn?t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It?s so unreal
Didn?t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn?t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing / I don?t know why
It doesn?t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I?m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren?t the way they were before
You wouldn?t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I
I tried so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter

I?ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There?s only one thing you should know
I?ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There?s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter

Ghost Of You

Summer's ended and without a trace
time goes by - while you remain
Funny how I thougt I walked on through
with my heart in one

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

How I tried to get you of my mind
but you return - all the time
I believed I could just let you go
like the fool I am

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Oh baby why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

I've been trying to release you
to get my feet back on the ground
Still I need my hope to hold on to
even if I know i should back away
It's just a part of me that I can't erase

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

Baby, baby why
Anyway I try I'm still reminded
(the ghost of you)
Anywhere I go I keep coliding with
(the ghost of you)
I've given up I just can't fight it
(the ghost of you)

Everytime I look away I see
the ghost of you

26 Aug 2006

This is the day that i didn't feel like celebrating.

Sorry.




I thought real hard and i realised that the rate at which the list on the left gets shorter would definitely outrun the rate of the list getting longer.




Believe in me, believe in yourself..

I'm a lover, not a bugger.

The crystals i find on your face worth a million, don't drop any of it anymore.




This is one of those days when fate gets in your way or someone's way.

You know its coming, but can't do nuts about it. It frustrates you and you decide not to do anything anymore. When it comes you want to do so much, but then you realise its too late.




Don't use examples in reality to reason logically with me, because its all based on circumanstances.





hug the mAd. ( zzy and giddy would know what i mean=P)




I know the order is kind of messed up hope you all don't mind, i can't do anything even if you all do.( move your cursor to the top right, and give it a left click if you get confused, that's all i can do) The 4line spacing is teh separation of brief thoughts. I need some rest.

The Times

First Picture is definitely myself.
Second Picture is me and my brother! I'm the smaller one of course!

Chasing Blindly After- The Endless Pursuit

We live to chase, to search, to earn, to wait and maybe to gain.

This 'process' would you call it a process, it is rather a routine which never ends.



Since you were born, you wait for milk.

Next you ask for toys. In a way you use your smile to 'earn' for toys in return.

When you know how to talk, you begin to ask for it. Some parents would make it in form of trade. For example, when you do well in spelling, they would reward you.

When you grow older, stepping into the first 6 years of fromal education, the government begins to provide you with an incentive. In hope to 'tempt' you to go for the 'carrot', and hopefully contribute to the nation someday.

In the last year of the fundamental education, your parents and relatives tells you all about schools and instituitions to go to, but actually you didn't give a damn. But, somehow, you'd listen to them and heed their advices..

Then the real torture begins when u work tirelessly for A s and B s. You fall into the abyss of darkness and working for the 'desired' outcome becomes your only aim in life, never would you realise what you would have missed out.

You describe these people as focussed.

As soon as the government brings you out of the education system, you begin to truly work for yourself as you have to feed maybe not your family but yourself at least...


Its basically alot of bullshit, but point is that this is no difference to all that you have been through in the first 9-18 years of your life.. the 'carrot' simply changes its form.. and somehow it never ends.. it continues to morph and change its form..

Eventually, you still have to work and catch up with reality no matter how hardworking you are.. everytime you take a break out of the immeasurable pool of pain, you realise that there is more work waiting for you to be done..

It simply never ends.

Maybe adopt the way of life from a particular religion and you may reduce the scale of the endless pursuit.. i.e be a monk? or a priest?

You still have to 'work' for food, but the purpose perhaps is a more honourable task??

think about it my friends and decide how you want to live your life since you know it happens all over again.. if you didn't know NOW i'm telling you this.. so maybe you would want to do something..

Maybe this isn't the best showing of my somewhat limited linguistic ability but the content is there, the fruit of my thoughts is there..


By me once agian.

A Man Back To Business

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101

Yeap, this is post number hundred and one, and I've decided to dedicate this post to you, Jacky Cheung, the best singer of my time.

无求甚么 无寻甚么
突破天地 但求夜深
奔波以后 能望见你
你可否 知道么
平凡亦可 平淡亦可
自有天地 但求日出
清早到后 能望见你
那已经 很好过
当身边的 一切如风
是你让我 找到根蒂
不愿离开 祇愿留低 情是永不枯萎
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我发觉我最爱与你编写
以后明天 的深夜
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我最爱你与我这生一起
那惧明天 风高路斜

名是甚么 财是甚么
是好滋味 但如在生
朝朝每夜 能望见你
那更加 的好过
当身边的一切如风 是你让我找到根蒂
不愿离开 祇愿留低 情是永不枯萎
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我发觉我最爱与你编写
以后明天 的深夜
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我最爱你与我这生一起
那惧明天 风高路斜

而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我发觉我最爱与你编写
以后明天 的深夜
而每过一天 每一天这情深者
便爱你多些 再多些然后再多一些
我最爱你与我这生一起
那惧明天 风高路斜

That's all for post 101.

A Detour

Do you every realise its when you are away from the crowd, being alone, you would find and realise what is really important to you? I treasure what I have now, and I would put in hardwork for 'the' future.


Ironically, you often place them in lower priroity when you are indulging yourself in fun and perhaps entertaining activities.


I'm physically sick. All because of the subject with a self-defeating objective (shall not elaborate)...

Slept at 3+ last thursday, drank red bull to play soccer on friday, slept late once again.
Decided to be a good boy and woke up early to take breakfast with mum.
Went Queensway to collect jerseys and fireworks and night till slightly late, slept at 2.
Sundat woke up for tennis, rested a while in the afternoon and went to play street with brother despite being tired, just wanted to have some activities with him...
Slept late on that day for PW once again...
End up falling sick and have to be at disposal for the virus that exists in my body...


I want to take a detour in order to make things go more swiftlyand more smooth sailing for me, that it would be.


On a random separate note, in my opinion we should just school for 4 days and have 1 weekday off isn't it.

Key Inspirations

Yes, i mean inspirations.

I've finally caught lakehouse at the movies with my brother and mom. Its not that bad isn't it i mean the movie, i wonder how one can fall asleep? But maybe its due to the fact that I've missed out 10 minutes of it, cause my brother, my mom and I for no particular reason went late for the movie that we've booked and perhaps it triggers me to try to understand what's going on on the screen..

Such a sweet boy right, accompany my mother to movies, haha.

Why am I still up at this hour?

Damn Project Work, or rather damn my group leader. Yes thank you for passing me the file, WITHOUT the things i've conceptually mapped out to include in the Written Report, it is a pain in the ass for me to think what I've thought 6 days ago. I'm quite sure I'll only do one draft for the group and that's it.

Another group mate and I mapped out the whole project but what have we got so far? There must be a reason behind it isn't it. And I've got to the brink of fustration and I've decided to CALL IT A DAY.

Let us get reprimanded by the teacher, I don't mind, let's play the game known as PUSHING THE BLAME, haha good luck to my leader.

I've straightened out my thoughts and now its time to hocus pocus and focus lest its too late, of course it applies to other matters too, haha. Thank you Lakehouse, a movie when you're mentally tired can do wonders!

I still have a match tomorrow, hope i don't break my leg or whatsoever, pray hard for me everyone.

Let's get to bed!

Idea

SAY yes to consumerism.


Although it eat up/steal/rob you of your identity of any sorts.


But it works, it improves your life, and make you a happier individual.


So say YES to consumerism with me now!


quite random i guess but this idea really rocks.

Priorities

I've just realised that i'm being lazy again. This isn't new i know, but somehow i just don't feel like doing work.. But i think i may face the consequence of being re****ed if i don't start working NOW!

I know I would have to do it somehow, but i don't know how.

Don't laugh please if u are laughing your asses of now..

Its just a few more weeks away i mean the pro**s, and it would decide my fate for the next year. I guess I have to put in the effort now..

Because I don't want to waste a year in that worn out, self-proclaiming happening place..I just want to get over with it.. Not only with the place, but with the pointless studying of information..

AND practicing of mathematics sums.. It's just so boring, rotting my brain out.

I guess my mum is getting worried for me now, I know i shouldn't let her be so.. but ya the only solution is to work.. but i need that 'something' to once again give me back the drive to work.

I don't even know what that 'something' is in the first place. I don;t know if this is good or bad.

BUT for now, i have my new Vivacitors jersey to look forward to! haha, heard that its fantastically OWNAGE from xinxiang.

I guess my messages going to exceed like MAD this month, haha but its ok.. (=


Luckily i have you, soccer and my friends..

Analysis

JJ asked me to take this test, so i did, here's the results.

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		9
Acts of Service:		7
Words of Affirmation:		5
Physical Touch:		5
Receiving Gifts:		4

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

What it is

"Getting people to like you is merely the other side of liking them."

~ Norman Vincent Peale~