People

Certain people like to do people analysis.

Perhaps they think it would help them to tackle situations with them with less hassle, by understanding or hoping to understand how others act.

Or maybe for the sheer enjoyment they get from understanding others in their own
perspective.

You may have gotten it right for others, but sorry not and probably never for me. haha.

Interesting though as i read, for someone else's point of view of looking at yourself.

Maybe everyone should do something like this.

But not everyone has the time. haha.

I guess you're just too free and want to find something to do.

You've got some of us wrong.

Anyways I've taken time 1day and something before my papers to talk about what you've blogged probably 2 months ago. haha.

Don't take what i say too seriously even if you realised it were you that i'm talking about.

Thank god for the technology and search engines.



I think i can promote, but let's not talk about quality grades. I'm not capable of it at this moment and state, be realistic and don't pin high hopes on me, my brother. Yes, my brother, anywyas thank you for the confidence and the thought to be concerned about my 'future'.

I respect you after what you did yesterday, really. It was quite beyond your means and you didn't mind stretching yourself to a certain extent. Frankly speaking, i wouldn't have done it. I would have the thought and if i had the ability i would have done it, but if i was at your state, i wouldn't. I'm shameful for being this way as i compare myself to you.

But once again that makes me different from you, although we have some uncanny similarities. And be confident, if you read this don't smile at me. If i was a girl i would have considered you if you were a lil more serious. HAHA

May god and deities bless me for the things that i have to go through. And i don't want to think about my destiny.

PS: I really want to play in the English Premier League to have Arsene Wenger as my coach. As much as you want Takeshi Kaneshiro or Bradd Pitt as your boyfriend or Keira Knightley or Angelina Jolie as your girlfriend. But dreams are dreams and fantasies are fantasies.











This world would be much better if there were more mutual understanding.

Driving me nuts

YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
I REALLY CANT WAIT
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
FR PROMOS
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
TO END
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
me2
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
OMG
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
but the day b4 it ends u cfm freak out
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
its driving me nuts
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
you mean my last paper ah
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
HAHAHA YEA LA
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
FUCK
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
yea
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
haha
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
i hope tonight got earthquake
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
why so vulgar
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
and sars
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
and everyth all at once
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
and bombc
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
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YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
then they cancel promos
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
u might as well say terrorist bomb some school
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
then all schools closed
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
then the terrorists got sars
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
then we all go shopping
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
YAY
marvin™ its coming its coming says:
lol
YOU MAY NOT SEND A NUDGE THAT OFTEN. WTF says:
ok byebye i go sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep



Yea. I hope so too, but let's come back to reality.Sigh. It's driving alot of people nuts.
Take a break if you find that you are like her. Haha.

A reason

I had no reason to complain.

Time and Again

Now i got to know the meaning to the phrase' thats what friends are for'. I wasn't like this say 4 years ago. I wanted to become an even better person, and i became one, according to my own set of criteria for judgement of course.


Time and again i resisted it. I resisted the thing in me to go back to what i was. But now, finally and fortunately the people around me got the better of me.


I should have gone back to myself long time ago. Not when i'm at this pathetic and deplorable state.


What's the thing that got the beter of me? 'Humans' i say, 'society' i say. Sounds so cliche but what the hell, its the truth.


Where is the thing that i'm looking for? I've found one or maybe a few. But its moving away or growing weak.


So in all... A rational mind tells you that you should get back and be a bastard, instead of enduring and tiding through what it is now.


The word for today is 'unconditional'. Have you? Or have you once?


Anyway, thank you for making me stay up till the morning to make it possible for me to think through what i've been doing.

FEI YU QING!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7TSUGPKZFjE



thats the K-ge version, now the mtv. decently nice la, espicially the FEI YU QING part haha

climbing the walls

Close your eyes, make a wish
That this could last forever
If only you could stay with me now
So tell me what it is
That keeps us from each other now
Yeah it's coming to get me
You're under my skin

No I can't let you go
You're a part of me now
Caught by the taste of your kiss
And I don't wanna know
The reason why I
Can't stay forever like this
Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss you

Take my hand, take my life
Just don't take forever
And let me feel your pain kept inside
There's gotta be a way
For you and I together now
Yeah it's coming to get me
You're under my skin

No I can't let you go
You're a part of me now
Caught by the taste of your kiss
And I don't wanna know
The reason why I
Can't stay forever like this
Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss you



and I hope You understand how much I really feel

Gone For Good

That's it.


I'll always have faith, since its the fruit that I've wanted all along.


It was once great, never would I have thought this would happen.


But well, nothing is for sure, things come and go, events happen and there we go.


I prayed hard for many things, given up my future for it.


But what can i do now, even when it has lost its shine?


I worked and given the most that I could have given,


its not whithin my control anymore.


I don't want to talk about it anymore, its his life.


I've done one last thing and I hope he would do it for his good.


I want to tell everyone 'that's my boy!'


What's love when you've never tasted it?

Book

Leviathan by Thomas Hobbes is a good read.


Thats all. Not really in the mood to blog or whatsoever.


Come and go, make sure i'm with the flow.


I'm always there.


Perhaps it would be another year.


This is really the final straw, I just hope that i care.


It makes no sense since its my affair.


No remorse as I'm the chair.


Whatever it is, there ain't any flare.


Routine to do, then why its there.


You have a choice, please do care.



It's killing me.


Whatever People Say I Am, That's What I'm Not--Arctic Monkeys

The Game

I WANT TO PLAY MAHJIONG!


I DESPERATELY WANT TO PLAY MAHJIONG!


I HEALY REALLY WANT TO PLAY MAHJIONG!


I WANT MY DONG NAN XI BEI ZHONG FA BAI!


I WANT TO PLAY!


I WANT TO PLAY!


I WANT TO PLAY!


Promotional Examinations can get lost anot?

Hocus Pocus

In general, I think certain things have to stop and more emphasis should be placed on things which are more important, essential and determining.


My mother is right, and she always is, at least at times where i'm not bent on doing something i want to do at that point of time.


As it goes through your mind after it had taken place, you feel that it wasn't necessary. For whatever reasons, you cling on to it, helplessly.


Sound pathetic and squalid isn't it? It's all about Catholic High. Perhaps it would be different, perhaps perhaps perhaps.


I'm the director of my own movie, I know i know and i know.


Something have to get in me. That something which i'm still searching.


Somehow i think i know what it is, contradictory huh? but it's just so distant.


It might just somehow happen, i hope not. Really hope it doesn't work this way. I'll do whatever that is necessary. Perhaps perhaps perhaps.


Off i go getting myself onto the path of degredation.

A winner is someone who
recognizes his God-given talents, works his tail off to develop them into skills
and uses these skills to accomplish his goals.

~Larry Bird~

Or maybe it just isn't there.

Random, but not so random it is

You get what you give, not karma exactly but along those lines.


And i'm becoming more childish nowadays because of this thing that i'm in. Not that i'm much less before, but its more pronounced now. Its not bad or what, ok it is bad to confess.


Don't blame me in the future whatever it might be.


Its shopping tomorrow, it sounds gay, but maybe just call it buying things haha =)


If you show it to your teachers, show it to me. (its a riddle haha)


And i won't say it if i don't feel it.


random, but not so random.

Solutions?

Willow trees survive storms, whereas sturdier types, like the oak, topple over. Why? Because willows are exceptionally flexible. They bend, then go back up.

Subconsciousness

What a day it was. Yea still, happy since i've he finally spelled it out, although we acknowledge something quite profound but not quite profound which i knew since my years in catholic high.


On the way to Toa Payoh, i thought about problems. I'm perfectly fine ya. I mean problems or crisis in general, those that i've had, not at the present. It came to me that you have to really weigh your own priorities before making any real long-term commitments, i don't mean that there are any 'bogus' long-term commitments, but rather i'm driving at those which you can't realy get yourself out, even if situation seems bleak or unfavourable. Consequences are dire, but there's always a solution. But what if sometimes it doesn't.


Nothing fantastic from soccer, i'm the first one to blog about it i guess. Sorry jingjiat and giddy for coming to support. As anyone can see, we lacked depth from defence, and we lacked fitness all over. But i would still like to blame the ball =P, it was really heavy and couldn't really be lifted, so ya, embarassing scoreline. (i'm not going to say it, because it really isn't what we're capable of and there are a few erm blooopeeerss from our keeper that erm attributed to this) But we were the weaker team, no fitness, no teamwork, lets dive into the transfer market and hopefully get some good transfers like what Aston Villa did, EPL is getting stronger and stronger by day since Roman came.


Took a long bus ride and its still quite the same. 'Enjoy' is not the word, rather I find my time well spent for the few hours.


Just if anyone and everyone can be more responsible for the enviornment =P, i take Geography, or used to, random.


All these things mentioned in this post have got something to do with subconsciousness, so be wary of it.


No reason why I'm blogging at such hours, just that I can't really sleep.


Get your priorities right, message sent i hope.

In The End

(It starts with)
One thing / I don?t know why
It doesn?t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It?s so unreal
Didn?t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn?t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing / I don?t know why
It doesn?t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I?m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren?t the way they were before
You wouldn?t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I
I tried so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter

I?ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There?s only one thing you should know
I?ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There?s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter

Ghost Of You

Summer's ended and without a trace
time goes by - while you remain
Funny how I thougt I walked on through
with my heart in one

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

How I tried to get you of my mind
but you return - all the time
I believed I could just let you go
like the fool I am

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Oh baby why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

I've been trying to release you
to get my feet back on the ground
Still I need my hope to hold on to
even if I know i should back away
It's just a part of me that I can't erase

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

Baby, baby why
Anyway I try I'm still reminded
(the ghost of you)
Anywhere I go I keep coliding with
(the ghost of you)
I've given up I just can't fight it
(the ghost of you)

Everytime I look away I see
the ghost of you

26 Aug 2006

This is the day that i didn't feel like celebrating.

Sorry.




I thought real hard and i realised that the rate at which the list on the left gets shorter would definitely outrun the rate of the list getting longer.




Believe in me, believe in yourself..

I'm a lover, not a bugger.

The crystals i find on your face worth a million, don't drop any of it anymore.




This is one of those days when fate gets in your way or someone's way.

You know its coming, but can't do nuts about it. It frustrates you and you decide not to do anything anymore. When it comes you want to do so much, but then you realise its too late.




Don't use examples in reality to reason logically with me, because its all based on circumanstances.





hug the mAd. ( zzy and giddy would know what i mean=P)




I know the order is kind of messed up hope you all don't mind, i can't do anything even if you all do.( move your cursor to the top right, and give it a left click if you get confused, that's all i can do) The 4line spacing is teh separation of brief thoughts. I need some rest.

The Times

First Picture is definitely myself.
Second Picture is me and my brother! I'm the smaller one of course!

Chasing Blindly After- The Endless Pursuit

We live to chase, to search, to earn, to wait and maybe to gain.

This 'process' would you call it a process, it is rather a routine which never ends.



Since you were born, you wait for milk.

Next you ask for toys. In a way you use your smile to 'earn' for toys in return.

When you know how to talk, you begin to ask for it. Some parents would make it in form of trade. For example, when you do well in spelling, they would reward you.

When you grow older, stepping into the first 6 years of fromal education, the government begins to provide you with an incentive. In hope to 'tempt' you to go for the 'carrot', and hopefully contribute to the nation someday.

In the last year of the fundamental education, your parents and relatives tells you all about schools and instituitions to go to, but actually you didn't give a damn. But, somehow, you'd listen to them and heed their advices..

Then the real torture begins when u work tirelessly for A s and B s. You fall into the abyss of darkness and working for the 'desired' outcome becomes your only aim in life, never would you realise what you would have missed out.

You describe these people as focussed.

As soon as the government brings you out of the education system, you begin to truly work for yourself as you have to feed maybe not your family but yourself at least...


Its basically alot of bullshit, but point is that this is no difference to all that you have been through in the first 9-18 years of your life.. the 'carrot' simply changes its form.. and somehow it never ends.. it continues to morph and change its form..

Eventually, you still have to work and catch up with reality no matter how hardworking you are.. everytime you take a break out of the immeasurable pool of pain, you realise that there is more work waiting for you to be done..

It simply never ends.

Maybe adopt the way of life from a particular religion and you may reduce the scale of the endless pursuit.. i.e be a monk? or a priest?

You still have to 'work' for food, but the purpose perhaps is a more honourable task??

think about it my friends and decide how you want to live your life since you know it happens all over again.. if you didn't know NOW i'm telling you this.. so maybe you would want to do something..

Maybe this isn't the best showing of my somewhat limited linguistic ability but the content is there, the fruit of my thoughts is there..


By me once agian.

A Man Back To Business

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101

Yeap, this is post number hundred and one, and I've decided to dedicate this post to you, Jacky Cheung, the best singer of my time.

无求甚么 无寻甚么
突破天地 但求夜深
奔波以后 能望见你
你可否 知道么
平凡亦可 平淡亦可
自有天地 但求日出
清早到后 能望见你
那已经 很好过
当身边的 一切如风
是你让我 找到根蒂
不愿离开 祇愿留低 情是永不枯萎
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我发觉我最爱与你编写
以后明天 的深夜
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我最爱你与我这生一起
那惧明天 风高路斜

名是甚么 财是甚么
是好滋味 但如在生
朝朝每夜 能望见你
那更加 的好过
当身边的一切如风 是你让我找到根蒂
不愿离开 祇愿留低 情是永不枯萎
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我发觉我最爱与你编写
以后明天 的深夜
而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我最爱你与我这生一起
那惧明天 风高路斜

而每过一天 每一天这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些至满泻
我发觉我最爱与你编写
以后明天 的深夜
而每过一天 每一天这情深者
便爱你多些 再多些然后再多一些
我最爱你与我这生一起
那惧明天 风高路斜

That's all for post 101.