Laid Back

Don't get ahead of yourself.

2010-07-28T21:55:00.000+08:00

fk you for reading.

That extent

2009-09-22T00:17:00.003+08:00

Do i really have to feel it that deeply within myself before i act?

I do hope that they make the best choice for themselves. But don't do this to me please.

I really cherish what i have and i'm working on what i don't.

Maybe one should never have left anything to chance in the first place.

Hard to comprehend, yet again.

byebye

2009-08-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

i guess its time to put an end to spending time at clubs.

not an end to drinking though!

what?

2009-06-13T18:58:00.000+08:00

Wow

2009-04-02T00:19:00.002+08:00

My friend's personal message:

'when u spare a thought for everyone around you, who give a fuck about you?'

some grammatical errors, but that's not the point.

wow. Is it true? haha.

@war

2009-02-13T14:19:00.002+08:00

Have been drinking too much.. Made a significant effort to stop smoking and get it right.

Still there's no clear indication or leads. I think i have to continue to make my way through i guess haha. Feeling very thankful for certain friends and my family.

Tied up and someone is going to leave in june making my life a little bit more uncertain, got to suck it up seriously.

Tingles.

2009-01-18T17:29:00.003+08:00

Feeling that something is about to change. Hope its for the better.

Though i work 8-5 , still i have to say this. 9 more months to go.

Hiding

2008-12-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

I'm constantly moving, constantly shifting.

Behind that pillar, that room, that wall.

Sneaking off to that corner, taking a puff or two.

In a cosy room, it seems like a paradise, a solace.

Will it end?

woah i don't know.
Big brother always deploy his dogs, watching you.

Sorting Out

2008-11-16T22:55:00.002+08:00

This is rather random as usual.

Is it more about me? Or rather is it more about you?

Really tough question.
Its innate nature that at crunch time, one will probably save themselves before the others. But what about times where situations are more casual?

I don't really get what i'm trying to say as well.

Messed up.

Maybe we should try for it to be "more about us" but there isn't any chance for us.

Big fish in a little pond

2008-11-05T00:11:00.002+08:00

Looks like i've got it up and running again, cos it sounds like it.

Not another empty statement i guess, but only time will tell, cliche it is but really you can't find out till its time.

I get some renewed confidence everytime i speak to him.

Sounds gay but its over that level haha.

It's about getting down and doing it i guess, probably this works for every case but yea..

Life's decent.

good bye, if anyone bothered to visit this page "covered with cobwebs" lol

after some time

2008-10-18T02:25:00.002+08:00

Seriously i don't know if there is anyone who still visits this page. Anyway i really want to change the bloody skin, but really might be a bit of a chore, wanted to use the standard templates, but will lose the links yea so..

Anyways life has been good so far, out and about as my nickname on messenger shows, having a rather 'easy' life now definitely. But its hard earned yea. No free meals as the chinese saying goes.

Yea quitting the vices definitely.

No more of it. At least i'll try to haha.

time?

2008-06-16T21:43:00.001+08:00

Time is

too slow for those who wait,

too swift for those who fear,

too long for those who grieve,

too short for those who rejoice,

but for those who love and care,

time is eternity

does it matter.

-

2008-05-25T19:13:00.000+08:00

I think i do not need this platform anymore, for whatever reasons.

Deg.

2008-05-20T21:28:00.002+08:00

Need to move away from the current lifestyle.

I wonder it takes how long.

Its the life of a teen, i like it, but its just not good haha i know.

Lead

2008-05-03T12:02:00.001+08:00

I need to FARM FARM FARM.

Give me some time.

The way it is

2008-03-22T20:58:00.002+08:00

It happens, and its getting worse haha. Taking it in my stride as usual but it seems to be overwhelming.

Its not the first time, but it is really unbearable, i really can't do shit about it except for pushing on, it weighs me down again and i push on.

Hope it gets back to the way it was and i promise or rather i think i will do my part.

Still learning, i must admit.

In All

2008-03-08T03:25:00.001+08:00

ALA KE POM POR

MATA KONGSI

Chatterbox.

2008-03-07T03:29:00.000+08:00

Oh yea the chat box is down, cos it has been rather dead.

so if wanna say anything if you bother, just post a comment.

have fun.

nah

2008-02-24T08:22:00.001+08:00

I want to change my blog skin, said this since last year i guess.

I just want to get over with it, getting on me now.

move, fly.

First

2008-02-06T23:19:00.001+08:00

Just bought my first 4-D ticket today, wish me luck=)

Money money. haha.

Privileges

2008-01-26T14:04:00.000+08:00

Listening to music is a privilege.

Listen only when you need it.

When the cold wind blows. haha.

Screw the camo cream man.

I think I know.

2008-01-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

The way you are brought up will seriously impact your life. Your life being friends you make, people you hang out with, the people whom you talk to, things you talk about, way you veiw certain issues, leisure activities, contents in rubbish talk...

I've realised i can't take cantonese out of my life seriously, as in the language rather the dialect.
Its just too into me, 18years and running. After the concert, Jacky Cheung concert, i'm pretty damn sure of this feeling that i've been having, it just seems so much closer with cantonese, if you get what i mean.

And i just lead a family lifestyle which is very different from average families, i don't hate it but its just different. To just take this word from jionchun 'knowledge' , its not the 'knowledge' but instead the activities and lifestyle which brought this 'knowledge' to me.

So i think i know, she must know cantonese, or i need to leave.

new year, another year

2008-01-04T11:30:00.000+08:00

There was this weird feeling seeing people with school bags going home while i was on the bus the other day, uniforms are quite cool haha, not the green ones tho.

i want to change the bloody blog skin, seriously but no mood to go browsing.
The red is too dark.

Adult bus fares quite painful, 1.12from kallang to pasir ris, bus from pasir ris back home 1.62 =(
and cabbed 9.10 to kallang that day, 13bucks for transportation a day, insane.

soon, soon.

All about my REAL brother

2007-12-29T00:59:00.000+08:00

外人乱我兄弟者，必杀之

兄弟杀我兄弟者，必杀之

Broke the Record

2007-12-28T12:33:00.000+08:00

Oh my, i just slept for 24hours and perhaps 15minutes.

Beat That haha.

9am on 27th to 915/920am on 28th.

Its the soccer ,'BBQ' and the elias mall bullshit. haha.

1 wasted day.

Impromptu

2007-12-24T21:26:00.000+08:00

This is what we're about man haha. Do things without plan but still roll out perfectly.

As 2 days ago i was saying i have no activities for eve and christmas, but there it was for me GONG JIAO OEI lol.

Didn't go with brother=) not my crowd la haha, so dress code is RED haha like santa LOL.

Everyone is bringing booze, hope XX can be contacted and ZY can stop 'T' for a moment and join us LOL, seriously just joking haha don't get worked up if you read this=).

2 Christmas presents from 2 women, ah 1 is my mum =D my mum is damn nice yes. Got food from friends and all too. Hope it'll be a merry christmas for me and my friends and people whom i care. MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS haha.

GOING WILD CONFIRM LATER HAHA. HOPE YOU DONT RUN INTO ME =O

OH mY GAWD

2007-12-12T15:32:00.000+08:00

Haven't been doing much haha, soccer, movies, stay overs, walk walk, excercise.

That's about it.

Don't feel like typing aything serious or whatsoever, just not in the mood isn't it? Life's so carefree.

Everybody is going on holidays, and i'm going off too, soon.

Hong Kong it is, yes again, hahah but i quite like the atmosphere there, and maybe this time round can experience the night life there cos' i'm sorta 'grown up' =))

Anyway, i need to organise my life, seriously. Too much woohaa this 3 years. Have to be more concerned with my life rather than other peoples'. A lil sorry that i didn't make full use of 3 years. But nevermind, i'll live a long life haha, so 3 years might just be alright.

Still missing pieces in my life. Working on it.

(I'm serious not EMO haha, just need to meet me in person to realise)

Oh, and seriously didn't go home club to crash post prom, haha but i bet no one will believe. Seriously went there with luvis to drink. Though actually brought shirt to change if my friends considered going some other clubs, but since they chose to stay at home club, haha didn't bother to change out of my polo=).

Quite funny seeing people get drunk, and some unimaginable scenes of scholars getting seriously high haha. Too bad i didn't bring a camera, surely i could have asked for some money with the photos =P. Got a lil high mid way thru it, after dancing and all, but never got tipsy/drunk or anything like that. I don't know whats wrong with me, haha, really really really really hard to get drunk. Drank a lil last night but don't even feel a shit of the alcohol LOL.

But some aj girls drink till cannot maintain seriously. HAHA, shall keep my mouth shut and not type names lol.

Have fun for those on holidays, try to enjoy for those who are working and 'move around' for serious serials watchers.

Dumb

2007-11-17T16:17:00.000+08:00

I think, i'm just thinking that, Complacency got the better of me.

Its not the first time haha, when will i learn to give my best?

Economics was just upsetting, usually can get by with little effort, wOw but on wednesday i felt it didn't go too well, there goes 1 A.. and i'm only aiming for 2A. How upleasant this is, for me and my attitude.

Objective

2007-11-10T00:14:00.000+08:00

So last night i made this decision to go to the airport to have dinner with my friends who were already there studying. Travelled from north to east.

A little out of my mind, but it just shows how much love i have for you guys HAHA.

Anyways, the plan initially was just dinner, but they suggested to study, so i packed my bag and moved. I knew there isn't a possibility that we can really study together, we'll definitely talk, so that was what happened all night long. Took 3 meals of Macs there -.- and left to take a rest at Jeffrey's place before going home early in the morning.

But somewhere in between, we've talked about how significant A levels is to your life, will it be a measure of success, or a determinant of success. Its not really that interesting, but rather amusing to see two 18year olds in the midst of taking A levels talking about this.

Anyway, what i think is that it is not a determinant of success and certainly not a measure of success, not simply because i'm not at the top end of results at the moment, but my believe as always. Yes, perhaps its a measure of success for a student, are we students? I think we're not, we're made to do a thousand things and study, so we're not merely students haha. You can grind out 4As, 3months of intense studying will give you that. But you can't develop personalities and character. But hardwork definitely pays, regardless of context. I'd rather say hardwork is a determinant of success, certainly so.

Whatever it is i will still prepare for the remaining papers just like how i've always done it, haha A levels is just another examination to me, if i can do excellent GOOD, if not, let's just move on. I couldn't care less what other people's grades are as long as i can get into varsity and do some decent course. Wish the aspiring lawyers, dentists, doctors, pharmacists whatever, good luck.

Realise the assumption?

-

2007-11-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

I should really just try and be myself.

坏人

2007-11-02T19:55:00.000+08:00

谁做事会没有自私的想法，我也有，但对我的朋友我做不出。

希望这不会变。

这对我珍惜的人和东西都一样。

Climate N' Enviornment

2007-10-31T12:33:00.000+08:00

How apt. Haha.

If you have no idea, look closely at what Singapore has just launched.

Oh anyway, my mother is all behind me in the examinations, not new, but just had to say.
Though i know my brother is rather very more than nice, haha i didn't expect him to call my mother to ask how i'm doing, haha.

Hurry, let's get over with it.

Cambridge and MOE surprise me everytime.

A Long Way

2007-10-13T23:38:00.001+08:00

I've come a long way.

One of my friends said, everything doesn't matter, only the results does. True?

Everybody is talking about the farewell. I'm not trying to be different, but i think there's not much to say.

You miss the people, not the place. The place just brings back memories of time you've spent with the people. I'm not trying to say that the place isn't important but to me it isn't. The memories you share are between your friends and you. But you share the place with everyone who have had memories. Its all about the numbers isn't it.

Had good teachers, had very nice friends from SJI, a school which i used to think produce arrogrant scums. I'm quite sure now to not generalise. Also, the western food store auntie who's so nice to me, its not about the bargains i get from her, its more than what others who complain at mass civics see. Don't generalise. Though its over, i will still say i didn't have a fantastic class, but i couldn't ask for more, what have not been done is that we haven't tried certain things.

So, all in all, not much memories, and i've worn the school badge for days which my fingers can count. But Anderson have great teachers, at least most of them are good. Its all about numbers.

There's so much to say, but so little i actually want to say. But it stops here, right here.

I want to make the world a better place, i feel its my destiny, haha. (rather random, just rather.)

Serving the Nation

2007-10-11T19:22:00.000+08:00

Good evening Mr CHEUNG WAI LUN.Your enlistment date is not finalised yet. An enlistment notice will be sent to you two months before your enlistment date. For further enquiries, please call our Call Center at 1800-3676767 or email to us at contact@ns.sg.

Looks like immediate life after A levels for guys is all about NS.

I'm not really enthusiastic about it at all, but can't help logging in to the webby to check cos all my friends already knew their enlistment date. Guess its due to my PES haha.

Clarity

2007-10-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

I know whats going on, but i don't want to know whats going on.

I should just get myself sorted and tie myself to my desk.

Once i give myself a break say after a while of studying, i'll never return.. Sleep on the sofa(3/4hours), use the computer, play winning11, look outside the window, watch tv, read book, wahtever, but never back to the desk.

I can't believe what i myself is doing , its pressing, but i'm still not working, another wasted weekend..

Whts up.

2007-10-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

So now there's nothing much to talk about except for the A levels coming up i see.

Anyways, i do want to read law, because i think it'll definitely work my brain.
But whats the point? Because i don't want to be a lawyer, i don't want to work 'n' hours a week and move towards partnership.

Hah let's not think too far, how to get into law having not done well in two H2 subjects? Think I'll just settle in some arts/social science courses, i think i'll have a comfortable life then, without all the numbers and algebra.

O.o so why push so hard? Maybe i just don't want a disgusting certificate.

Also, its really lame to have taken science subjects. I think i would have done way better with Economics, Geography, Mathematics and Chemistry. Funny combination, but i think it'll work fantastic for me.

Oh also i've been thinking about law internship, but from kenneths' experience, i don't think i want to go for it, unless i can make the cut for the course. I don't want to spend time doing mundane work, if theres even work to do. LOL

I'll study harder though, I'm convinced.

Run

2007-09-23T22:04:00.000+08:00

I want to leave this country, maybe for a moment, maybe for good.

Unfortunately/fortunately i'll still have to stay for another 2 years. Maybe I'll change my mind then, leaving nothing behind.

How i wish it was the same all again.
One wrong step and everything goes down like a domino, it falls so fast that i can't pull the plug, i end up hurting myself.

I want to leave, and take a break.

Am I really so nasty? I don't think so really.

Escape

2007-09-17T23:39:00.000+08:00

I feel like changing the skin of the blog, but it takes hell lot of time to personalise and transfer certain features..

Anyone to help me do it??

I'm not mature enough haha, as far as i used to think i was. Moving into adulthood for real this time i guess.

I appreciate.

2007-09-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

Thank you to all my friends, always there for me. I really appreciate.

Special call out especially to: Jion Chun, Jeffrey, Siwei, Foo, Jing Jiat, XX, Justin, Darryl

Also,
Gouthaman, Hweeteng, Yuying, Anqi, Kaiyang(somewhat inspiring blog articles)

Small statements and questions do help to make my day better most of the time.

Lost Loss

2007-09-06T23:10:00.000+08:00

I'm at lost. Haven't done anything for 3 days. I'm really just lousy, weak mind.

Beatles Lied

2007-09-03T23:37:00.000+08:00

Love was never an easy game to play, even if it was yesterday.

I'm fully aware of all my actions and its consequences. It was a good friday night. I'm aware of how people are feeling, perhaps thats my best personal skill i guess. Good happy hour drink, good Starbucks milk tea, good sitting at the 'biker gang' spot HAHA.

I'm sorry for you too, as i made it clear during the time, its more than what it seems to be. There are so many things on hand now, both in my hands and yours. I'm glad and sorry and everything was intentional as well as my swift departure.

Maybe everybody is not ready for it.

Elliot Yamin

2007-08-31T12:58:00.000+08:00

I don't get bored listening to it 1000 times.

Moving On

2007-08-31T00:27:00.000+08:00

I just need something new i guess or maybe i don't, just not what i'm facing now.

I'm empty, haha so how can i write good essays.

I NEED SOMETHING

Particularly like this graphic,cuz it resembles the old time comics i used to read.

Sometimes, its not up to you.
To put it in chinese：天时，地利，人和。
Tell me if I'm wrong, my phone is always switched on.

Leading the Race and maybe chasing

2007-08-29T18:30:00.000+08:00

I expect everyone in the education system to have experienced running, since you know everyone runs 2.4km for the Physical Fitness Test.

This is on the assumption that its sort of a race, and you want to win the race.

Its always difficult to run behind the pack when you start, reason being the difference in pace and all, so you want to be at the front. Anyway, as the race proceeds, it becomes more and more difficult to catch up with whoever is running in front of you. Wouldn't you agree???

This is the game I'm constantly playing this 2years. This is the last time for reversal, maybe not in real terms, perhaps at least consoling if i manage a decent finish.

Oh my.

Used to

2007-08-21T20:59:00.001+08:00

I think I used to be happy.

At least I remembered that i was a little happier back then.

I'm Breathing

2007-08-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

Please take some time to Listen To This Song (again).

Please take some time to Listen To This Song (again).

Its Just Me

2007-08-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

Start with the end in mind. This statement is made by some philosopher whom i can't remember.

They embed great lessons. It draws you to understand what life is about, or hopefully give you a better idea how to live a life. Having a better understanding and hopefully live life in a better way.

Confucius have also mentioned about realising life with age. Can't remember the exact statement.

They are all philosophers with great wisdom and inquiring about truths, perhaps what we call facts of life.

Can we ever know the 'right' way to life? Or must we fault or are we made to fault? There are 2 school of thoughts one of which is rationalizing-guided by logic, i can't remember the second.

This incoherence somewhat sums things up.

I take things too easily though i do value them.

Its hard to quantise how much i value various 'things', trying my best i can only say they mean 'alot' to me and affects me. Its just very hard to stop myself from being this way but i can't seem to accept. I can't even accept me being like this myself, so how do i expect any other person to accept this 'reasoning'. I only know i value them.

The more you know, the less you understand. --Lao tse
Is this true?

The more you learn, the more you know. The more you know, the more you forget. The more you forget, the less you know. So why bother to learn? --George Bernard Shaw
This is just paradoxical.

A man is like a fraction whose numerator is what he is and whose denominator is what he thinks of himself. The larger the denominator the smaller the fraction. -- Leo Tolstoy
This is true.

/This is crap/

What I Want.

2007-07-31T22:27:00.001+08:00

Texas

Maldives.

Galveston

I will buy a beach house one day, be it in Singapore(probably pretty too expensive), India, Australia. Anywhere, as long as i can enjoy the sheer tranquility, sunshine, sunrise, sunset and warm breezes.

But who will be share the experience with me?
Will the person be you?

Dreams

2007-07-28T20:08:00.000+08:00

Lets talk about dreams.

I presume that you have dreams or have had dreams.

First question would be how far away are you from your dreams?

For me, pretty real far. I don't know why perhaps the dreams that you have are relative to the state that you are in then. So as you move on in life when the situation changes and you grow up, you generally and ineveitably move further and further away from your childhood dreams or dreams you had in the early years of teenage.

Second question being-Do you still relish achieving the dreams? Or perhaps you have new dreams in your mind or maybe you have forgotten all about what you have originally dreamt of?Or even simply feel that a dream is just a dream.

The best would be the first or the second highlighted. Why so? I feel that for the first, those dreams would be innocent which are likely to reflect your character. No not your character, it would be more appropriate to say your nature. Characters are moulded. So it reflects your nature, your ambitions, your instincts, or even your destiny. In my opinion for the second, it shows your character. It reflects a more realistic dream so as to say since you're moving on in life with more experiences and in all understanding yourself better and knowing what your potential is all about. So similarly to the first, it reflects your ambitions, maybe courage, your wants and even your desires. Nevertheless, its good. It provides you with the impetus to work hard and might be a panacea when you meet difficulties since it is likely to encourage you to fight on.

If you've forgotten about your dreams or if you have never thought of what you might like to be, its time to think seriously for one. You are missing out on all the above mentioned. In my opinion, its not that you are realistic and living within your means. it shows how feeble and weak you are to not believe in your own abilities and strength and to simply accept everything given to you. You are just too caught up with your everyday life and chasing for things blindly.

Its different with a dream.
You are in pursuit of your happiness your dreams.
Who cares even if its just a pursuit.
You are at least trying to make yourself happy and worthwhile.

Live your dream(s).

If you agree then tell me about it. I would like to know.

Need to Change

2007-07-24T18:01:00.000+08:00

Hey, i've just realised a trend.

All of us haven't been doing well, academically haha.
'US' being Luvis, Bryan, Zhuang Yong, Xin Xiang, Shaun, Steiner, Jion Chun/Jeffrey/Jing Jiat/Jeremy=>slightly better.

And maybe should just change your name to start with 'J' to do slightly better LOL.

But still mediocre.HAHAHA

Need to change this awful trend of 2-6.

A Balance

2007-07-09T19:30:00.001+08:00

Its not in the balance. Its awfuly titlted to one side long time ago and now its tilted to another. I think I have to always forsake something in order to gain something, or maybe gain something before losing somethings.

Feeling really off. Its nowhere here nor there only my Indian friend can understand cause he's in exactly the same situation and he feels the same. Pity him and me. Not feeling sad but can't feel happy. So i would rather say i'm sort of deviod of human feelings and emotions and its really bad.

Times when you are not feeling too good, i'll offer something. Now when i'm in this situation its not even words. Probably i shouldn't even ask for anything. Cause its all about giving isn't it? Cause it works the other way too when others are giving lots to me and i don't give more than a damn about them. Maybe its Karma maybe its all about the balance.

I thank my friends once again. And yes my mother.

I seriously don't know if next is pay back time or enjoy walawala time.

They say alwasy hope for the better. Do something when you feel like it.
Oh anyway not really into the emo state cause i can't even really tell how i'm feeling haha.

Private

2007-07-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

There are things you want to keep to yourself and there are things you want to let others know.

There are also things only meant for certain people to know.

In My Own Hands

2007-06-24T16:47:00.000+08:00

Calm down.

Take a moment to relax. Bring up your pair of hands. Look inside your palms(do it).

You realise its all in your own hands.

I rememeber i laugh at all the ITE adverts outside Bishan ITE with Xin Xiang and friends when we go for this Sunday training thing at Bishan ITE. Now to think that its really true, what a joke man.

(haha can't get a better picture without paying)

"Failure means nothing at all if success comes eventually" -- Frank Bettger

Mighty Arsenal

2007-06-23T12:50:00.000+08:00

Henry signs for Barcelona

Thierry Henry tonight appeared to be on the brink of leaving Arsenal for Barcelona.

Sources close to the Spanish club have declared a four-year deal has been signed for the France World Cup winner.

-soccernet-

OH NO THIERRY HENRY MUST STAY!

I'm really free.

2007-06-22T18:50:00.001+08:00

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Being Real

2007-06-22T15:15:00.000+08:00

Now, since i'm extremely bored and having nothing to do which certainly shouldn't be the case at this moment and hour, i read XX's blog and went to the webby to check teh site out, but it generates different codes everytime i retry. So i browsed through the site and found this 'test' which i found interesting. Though i don't know if it gives different answers with every retry, this is the result.

You Are 73% Real

You know who you are, and you're pretty darn comfortable with yourself.
Like everyone, you struggle with the parts of yourself that aren't so great...
But you're good at accepting who you are and not dwelling on your faults.
As a result, you're confident, optimistic, and very real.

How Real Are You?

LOL a 73%. I sort of asked myself after i did the test Does it matter really?

The Game

2007-06-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

MEN WEREN'T REALLY THE ENEMY-They were fellow victims suffering from an outmoded masculine mystique that made them feel unnecessarily inadequate when there were no bears to kill.

-Betty Friedan-
The Feminine Mystique
The Game

LOL

from Soccer

2007-06-20T18:36:00.000+08:00

Mind weak.

Weak mind.

30 hour famine

2007-06-18T15:31:00.000+08:00

Sweet.

用华文

2007-06-13T22:31:00.000+08:00

我不知道要怎么了。

用起华文来了。

我不知道我在做什么。

也记不起曾经做过什么。

我有成就吗？

过去的任何事迹又重要吗？

我说过什么吗？

曾夸下海口说过什么吗？

我不要记得。

哈哈，我说过这么多，这次也可能是又一次的谎言。

现在的你读了这几行的字，明白了什么吗？
不要装懂或胡乱猜测我话的意识。
只有是挚友，华文又不错的会懂。
不再多说了。

打完对我来说这么多字，我还觉得我满酷的。哈哈。
（怕字太小我把字调大一点）

Laugh it Off

2007-06-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

Now i can only laugh things off.

Good/Bad? I don't know the answer.

I can play card games with my brother till the morning but i can't sit down and study for 1 hour. haha.

A Book

2007-06-10T23:02:00.001+08:00

Has been reading this book recently which taught me many new things.

I'd better start now.

What Fate Really Is

2007-05-31T00:09:00.000+08:00

Oh wells, today met Siwei at city hall. Helen who has never ever i swear in my life or rather of my knowledge never met her in person before. For just a moment while i was trying to get my brunch at some donut joint, she spotted her. We simply walked past these stalls, me being ignorant to things that doesn't really concerns me, didn't see Siwei but Helen saw her! And so oh yes.

Its fate as simply moments or rather 10 minutes ago, i was telling Helen or rather maybe the day before i was telling Helen that why should i be the one to arrange/decide on this 'outing' which has got nothing really to do with the other parties.(Okay quite bad to say other parties) Moreover, I'm not the one who's not available and where i don't even know why the other person is not available. So why am i being called a 'joke' jokingly by Siwei! No never will i decide and choose the day to meet, and maybe I'm willing to forsake the chance to meet Siwei. A really nice person i thought and still think she is. I thought the matter was trivial after all.

But once again, as I'm all pissed off the day before. I met her in person earlier today. And all the angst were gone. Why, simply because i know she's not the one blah blah and she's just too happy-go-lucky to feel how serious i treat this whole small incident. Maybe until she reads this article she would never know. Anyways, I've already met her though no long conversations etc. its made possible. That's what fate really is.

Back to today. As well, i was there to settle my brunch but i got put off by this really long queue which stayed the same even after i finished the food i bought directly opposite this stall. You may want to notice the queue which extends beyond the background. That man in the background if you would notice with a tie, stood there probably even before I've reached. This is not fate haha. But i would appreciate if anyone gets a donut specially for me from there =p, just joking.

Anyone, what do you read from this picture?

It means something but nothing to me at the moment. You can never know what a person thinks, you need clues, hints, something before you 'understand'. You understand when its a conversation, reasons thrown subtly here and there. You'll never understand with no verification. Never guess, or you may just end up being a fool. I can't fathom what anyone is going to think, so can anyone of you? Tell me if you can, you must be divine.

*TO TELL YOU WHY YOU SHOULD ACKKNOWLEDGE ME. (If you happen to read this)
Answer:SIMPLY BECAUSE I'M YOUR BROTHER.

Unfinished Business

2007-05-30T00:16:00.000+08:00

Some Friends the longer and better you know them, you'll be more sure of what they think and how they act, what they mean and what they don't mean.

Some Friends, the longer you know them, the more you're uncertain about them, not sure of what they think and how they think, not knowing what they mean when they mean something.

Troubled. No.

2 more days and i'll finish the 'unfinished business'.

Bargain!

2007-05-27T22:10:00.000+08:00

Really need to study, at the same time keeping to various commitments.

Anyways got a good bargain on saturday! Got a book that I would have liked to read for $6!!
Its original price was $39.90 because ppopular in orcahrd is closing down! Albeit the cover was a little scratched and all.

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Subscribing to being a pupil and student.

18 Years Ago

2007-05-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

I'm EIGHTEEN, i hope i know what i want.

Google Maps kewl

2007-05-13T16:37:00.001+08:00

This is AJ
http://maps.google.com/maps?hl=en&safe=off&amp;amp;ie=UTF8&oe=UTF-8&num=10&ll=1.378662,103.845971&spn=0.002612,0.003616&t=k&z=18&om=0

This is VJ
http://maps.google.com/maps?ie=UTF8&hl=en&om=0&ll=1.306278,103.919705&spn=0.002612,0.003616&t=k&z=18

This is Gong Jiao
http://maps.google.com/maps?ie=UTF8&oe=UTF-8&hl=en&ll=1.354808,103.844935&spn=0.002612,0.003616&t=k&z=18&om=1

Can't really tell if AJ is bigger than VJ LOL

And Gong Jiao's field is liek a desert!

Resolutions 03

2007-05-12T12:35:00.000+08:00

It may be late for this year, but not too late for my life.

It starts with:

1. BE RIGHT- DOING THE RIGHT THINGS

2. MORE DECISIVE- YES/NO

3. LESS VULGAR- NO UNNECESSARY EXPLETIVES

4. TRYING HARD- FOR ALL MY COMMITMENTS(trying my best is overstating i thought)

5. CLARITY OF PURPOSE (understand)

Found no. 5!

Many more to go which i have to discover.

Wake up.

2007-05-10T20:13:00.000+08:00

There ain't two bit lawyers.

Fate

2007-04-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

Do you ever believe in fate/destiny?(anything else along the line which spells similar meaning)

Have you discovered patterns in your life that keeps reoccuring?
e.g Good->Achievement->On course for success-> Fail
Lousy/boring all the while-> turns out positive?

If yours doesn't at least mines do fit into this 'random occurance' of events. Times where i enjoy the most, it will either end up in pieces or total disappearance from my life. Times where i do not actually say i enjoy, it ends up positive in varying degrees.

I hope my time in Aj would not be wasted, i can mention here i don't fancy being in Aj, but as if i have a choice with my should i say unfortunate showing in my first try with cambridge.

I'm desparately hoping that this time, it would turn out positive. Anyways i used to think back then and recently that i'm made for big things in life. 'Unfortunately' my life thus far doesn't much support the thought. But I still feel so.

Today's BK session with my 1622mates+Kai Kai was enjoyable! And its coming to an end once again..

In The Same Plight

2007-04-23T22:51:00.000+08:00

If talking degenerates, why talk.

I will talk less in school now, really since it degenerates me. Seriously the more i talk to luvis foo, the more i've found how much i have degenerated.

So why talk, since i think 93% of the school in my opinion is relatively useless.

Why 93% haha just a random number.

I Think So

2007-04-17T11:10:00.001+08:00

LOL

From You

2007-04-16T20:46:00.000+08:00

fickle fickle!

i love pple who are fickle, and it's YOU!!!

marvin!

(i'll publish things from you)

Maybe they want to change

2007-04-13T23:06:00.000+08:00

When i've blogged about something not exactly classified under happy/excited category, i'm not at all encourgaed by this page. If you feel the same!? You'll understand.

Vindicated

2007-04-13T22:43:00.000+08:00

I chase- it comes and go.

I let go- still held at the throat.

I hold on- hangs loosely.

I remember- hurts me even more.

I listen- the more i'm confused.

I dislike- i still live on.

I cherish- it upsets.

I cherish- stays apart.

I certain- it fails me.

I laugh- upset.

I alone- nothing helps.

Seriously don't really know whats going on. Its really really important to get it right.If it fails, I fail.

Made To Break

2007-04-10T21:20:00.000+08:00

I'm still goignt o do my maths and economics homework on ivle, simply becuase it can be done. Though having trainings/ match on both Monday and Tuesday didn't help with what i'm going through right now.

There are loads of things which can't be accessed, I've reflected my views on the survey which they left it there for me. At least maths teachers are intelligent enough to put slides if the videos didn't work. I did what i can and what i could have done.

And IVLE made be break my promise. I couldn't complete the work, having Chemistry SPA tomorrow is not helping either, together with the Ironman trainings, compounded with my poor sleeping habits these 2 days. What can be done? But i'm really sorry to break my promise. I can't complete chemistry even if i copied my notes over the phone as i still have to prepare for SPA after doing maths.

I guess i should stop reasoning and explaining and get down to do maths. Ciao.

I wonder

2007-04-09T21:28:00.000+08:00

For a moment i wondered if i was on a 56K connection, so as the school's web portal is loading i decided to blog since there's nothing better to do, 10mins passed and its still loading the 'welcome' page.

Anyways, i do not believe in secrets. If it is a secret then don't tell anyone! Its the best way of keeping a secret. If you tell anyone, you're putting a stake on the character, discipline and tenacity of that person.

anyways the 'E-lecture' supposed to last 33min, but it took me more than 3 hours.

Don't have the mood to continue, i don't think i will finish the e-learning shit that cant load.

Resolutions 02

2007-04-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

It may be late for this year, but not too late for my life.

It starts with:

1. BE RIGHT- DOING THE RIGHT THINGS

2. MORE DECISIVE- YES/NO

3. LESS VULGAR- NO UNNECESSARY EXPLETIVES

4. TRYING HARD- FOR ALL MY COMMITMENTS(trying my best is overstating i thought)

Found no. 4 in two days, not bad i thought haha.

Many more to go which i have to discover.

Consumption

2007-04-01T18:57:00.000+08:00

My Addidas boots tore, so after miserably taping it for many weeks, i decided to buy a new pair of boots, not top end i thought.

So considered many different models until i tried on this boot from my team mate, and i thought i loved it. So i went to Queensway to look for it i thought it was $159.

Haha but to my pleasure, it was at a discount of $125, only the latest colour-White/Silver cost $159.

Initially i thought the only one availiable was the striking yellow and green, but i went to other stalls and found this colour which i really like, but in the process i 'got attitude' by Salam and Sons, i think i'll never go there anymore. I bought at Weston in the end, they had all the colours, muahaha.

Here it is! :D

Resolutions

2007-03-31T19:33:00.000+08:00

It may be late for this year, but not too late for my life.

It starts with:

1. BE RIGHT-DOING THE RIGHT THINGS

2. MORE DECISIVE- YES/NO

3. LESS VULGAR-NO UNNECESSARY EXPLETIVES

Many more to go which i have to discover.

Ill

2007-03-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

The title of the post looks odd eh?

Thats how my body feels ye, odd.

It meant ill, with 'i' in caps it looks like ' l ' X3

Struggled through SPA today, felt terrible, coughing and sneezing so frequently, wanted to stay in school till after Chemistry and Physics lectures, you know why.

But felt really terrible, so went home ya, PE HOD signed my 'leave early form' haha.

Went to see doctor immediately, luckily got enough money in my wallet, freaking $34 dollars, if i do well i might want to be a doctor for this one reason-MONEY.

Slept for a few hours ok, 6 hours till 7 and went to buy SUBWAY!!!

Ate a foot long 'subway melt' myself haha.

And that was my sickly day.
I love you.

Not going to school tomorrow!! Woohoo can sleep late for once in so many weeks, haven't been waking up late due to trainings and giving tuition.

Oh, and bloody got 'tao pok' yesterday with a record of don't know how many people for no particular reason, with this fat indian being the first one on me, i bet i had close to 500kg on me(8people) till at one point, i couldn't breathe. Please Ms SUSAN LEONG, haha see this and punish them for erm 'horseplay'.

Anyways i feel its time to reply a letter haha.

Mr Bean

2007-03-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

I want to watch Music and Lyrics, but watched bean instead, but the outcome was as good :).

Oh anyways do any of you know about the new ferry wheel, it looks so cool.

I want to take the ferry wheel with you, and only you.

Priorities

2007-03-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

Its so clear to me now.

Me

2007-03-09T16:54:00.000+08:00

Took this picture last year during my Taiwan trip. My brother took it for me =D

I've found it!!!

2007-03-09T16:39:00.001+08:00

I've found it, way damn sure.

Yay!!

It will come to an end

2007-03-07T22:08:00.000+08:00

The time i've spent, the efforts i've put in.

No doubt at times I wasn't putting in 100%.

But effort was made to make myself availiable, and often i carried on with pains.

That and those must come to an end.

I'll push forward. With what i Have for the greater good.

Just say so

2007-03-07T02:20:00.000+08:00

I'm a rather sensitive individual. And I know.

But i don't assume.

After days where i digged and probed, i got to know.

You just have to say so.

Another Day

2007-02-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

It was end of school, had a somewhat okay day, which means nothing too bad or nothing too good happened. Physics tutor had some problems about controlling his temper although sometimes we were at fault, nevertheless i think its simply not right to slam things. After that went better, since according to my classmates i was the only one who passed the Econs test, a mere 'D', so wasn't really too happy about it. But at least it was not failing. So some good things some not so good things during curriculum time.

Lined up for PE, didn't have to go. So changed into boots and warmed up for training. It all started well until coach decided to work with possesssion in breaking down attack, those Arsenal type of attack, but with more switching, perhaps like the Spanish League. Mistakes after mistakes after yet another mistake. Everybody have a fair share, and obviously including myself. Coach got really dissappointed and made us sprint like dogs across the breadth of the field, we deserved it though. After say probably 6/7 sprints we resumed the training, once again the team screwed it up quite badly, and it was when he decided to call it a day.

Our teacher in charge, then worked on our fitness since coach got too dissapointed and left early, wasn't very tiring but strained on the hamstring. Perhaps when you run on the field its softer, thus working more on the hamstring when you need to go at a faster pace. Rounds after rounds and did 3 sets of conditioning excercises and that's all for training.

Felt quite bad as i was one of the players who lost concentration etc. So i stretched change, and head home. Boarded the 853 and a little kid and his mother made my day, simple things, yes indeed simple.

The little kid sat down with his mother after they paid for the bus fair, he was desparate to press the bell, and so his loving mother allowed him to do so. Initially, i thought that she shouldn't let him do that since they probably would not alight at the next stop just after boarding but they did, i wronged them for that moment. Anyway, this was not what made my day, i would be a freak if this made my day. He couldn't press the bell as it requires quite some effort to depress the button. So while the little kid was desparately trying to her the bell ring, his mother pressed onto another bell to let that happened, he was elated. How naive is the little kid?

Why can't the world be like this? Or is the world like this?

[Give me a some credit for trying to portray the scene =) ]

The Year of Pig

2007-02-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

Wow, this new year gave me lots of surprises!

Espicially in terms of the contents in the red packets!

Reached a record high!!!

Hope it signals a good year ahead for me!

Happy New Year of Pig!

3rd Day of New Year

2007-02-20T22:03:00.000+08:00

A few of them came for stayover. Surprisingly no mahjong, due to the very fact that everyone is tired and all, but we still didn't sleep until 6 in the morning of the 3rd Day of Chinese New Year.

Played some 'homo' game introduced by zhuangyong and yes it was quite fun and exciting but at perhaps the last round we were quite tired and we were just dreading it to be over and done with.

Once again for whatever reasons, i slept with him on the same bed again haha, i mean zhuang yong, no idea why. Then the gossiping session where code names Spiderman, Winnie the Pooh and Storybook came out of no where. I didn't know what was going on until the next day but still very funny though.

I spent 10 bucks today solely for cab. 2 to queensway 2 back from queensway and 6 to chinatown. Sigh.

A well deserved break.

'Randomness'

My Valentine

2007-02-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

Really happy to recieve wishes from zhuang yong and really nice flowers from jeffrey and si wei!! Jeffrey's flowers still look good even when i got home and my mother decide to put it in a vase on the coffee table!! And of course the lovely bear from helen.

On another note

Can You Feel Where Is The Real Heart?

I can't find it.

H for helen

2007-02-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

Today went to have dinner with helen since i'm not able to make it tomorrow because of the match against Yj at 530. Anyways the 'fireball steak' was cool at the cineleisure chicago restaurant or dunno what name, but it has got some chicago thingy on its signboard, the one beside subway.

The steak was good. But the rest were a little disappointing. Should be good enough for lunch but not dinner yea.

But though the ambience is not really that fantastic, they play great songs. First by celine dion, then Mariah Carey, then Babyface then Leeann 'Rimes/rhimes'?? The song by her was really nice, not unchained melody but the how can i live without you. yea. that was it!!!

Presents presents tomorrow!!!!!YAY!!!

Folly

2007-02-10T12:44:00.000+08:00

oh my god, lowest L1R5 in catholic high this year is 16.

What have we done to get such results compared to them haha.

030207

2007-02-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

Slowly but surely i'll get there no matter how bleak what i'm working on is right now. Its before me, and i'll get there.

reasons for being so. legitimate ones i have.

emotions

2007-01-31T22:32:00.000+08:00

Its not an emotion. Its a feeling.

Its very special, it simply surges through my chest to push the feeling up into my head and to the eyes.

The more i think of it, the more reptitions there would be.

I'm becoming stronger haha, i can withstand the emotion to continue talking.

Alphabets can't carry intentions and emotions.

Form is temporary, Class is permanent

2007-01-26T16:16:00.000+08:00

Look at the title of this post! Its from something Jeffrey once said, and it bears great resonance to what i felt as i had my long hours of break and also when i stepped out of the college.

I do not need moment of brilliances. I need class. In all aspects once again.

How to do that? Hopefully i can work it out.

Things which happened in school today were really heartening.

I discovered during a casual conversation with my friends that AJ actually breeds elitism as much as any other top colleges. Won't elaborate since its not my focus.

I'm edging closer to doing well in my A levels day by day. At least i think so, though the process is rather terribly slow of course. eh but i think slow progress is better than no progress. Nevertheless, its due to various commitments and interests. Well, its part of life and learning, so yea.

Today is a good day.

Good day Bad day

2007-01-25T22:36:00.000+08:00

Isn't a good day today.

Something with my family.

Something in the school.

Haha. Seriously why get so worked up? Why employ desperate and extreme measures?

Wasn't really neccessary i thought. But its their choice, not mines.

Let it be then. There's always a way out.

Point

2007-01-24T19:51:00.000+08:00

Eh by the way, i don't post lyrics for the sake of posting lyrics.

There's certain point i feel or would want to make in the lyrics that i have pasted.

I don't mean to hit a certain number of posts or anything.

If you care to know.

Awfully fantastic-Better

2007-01-24T19:49:00.000+08:00

G N' R

No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better
The hardest part This troubled heart Has never yet been through now We've healed the scars That got their start Inside someone like you now
Well had I known Or I'd been shown back when how long it’d take me To break the charms That brought me harm And all that won't erase me
I never would Not that I could No matter what you'd pay me Replay the part You stole my heart I should have known you're crazy

If all I knew was that with you I'd want someone to save me It'd be enough But just my luck I fell in love and baby all that I wanted was

Now I know you better
You know I'd know better
Now I, know you better

So bittersweet
This tragedy Won't ask for absolution This melody Inside of me Still searches for solution
A twist of fate A change of heart Cures my infatuation A broken heart Provides the spark for my determination

No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better ohh No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better

All that I wanted was

I know you know you know better You know I know you know better Yeah you know me better

(Solo)

I never wanted you to be so full of anger I never wanted you to be somebody else I never wanted you to be someone afraid to know themselves I only wanted you to see things for yourself

(Solo)

All that I wanted was Now I know you better Now we all know better All that I wanted was (Solo)

If I were you I’d manage to Abhor the invitation Of promised love That can’t keep up With your adoration
Just use your head And in the end You’ll find your inspiration To choose your steps That won't regret This kind of aggravation

No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better

Awfully fantastic.

2007-01-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

They are really good. Guns N' Roses Chinese Democracy!!! Really way too damn good.

http://www.gunsnroses.us/chinese_democracy/gunsnroses.html#news